Chloe|Xiumin♡

hey ❤️ I was wondering if you still take requests for your graphic book?

This is so random but I saw MONSTA X in person at their London concert on Tuesday. I’m still in awe. They’re so talented and amazing live. My breath was taken away from the rap line omg, their energy was so crazy and their rapping skills.. just wow. I had goosebumps during Sambakja?! ALSO I LOVE KIHYUN SO MUCH i can’t believe I got to see my bias with his signature headband look O.O kihyun looked so good and I watched the live they did after the concert and KIHYUN STILL HAD HIS HEADBAND ON EEEEEEEEE

I truly can’t wait to start writing again. I’m not sure how to being again, so if ANYONE could give me some input on the following questions, please message me and I’d appreciate it so so much.
          
          1) Should I continue to publish works on this account or completely abandon it and start another one?
          - I want a new start, so I know using another account would be a solution to this, however, this is also a continuation and I have many memories associated with this account because of the people who have read my stories, the comments, the messages, etc. So a large part of me wants to continue using this account for my future works.
          
          2) Should I delete my previous works?
          -I don’t want to continue with them. I want to maybe use them as inspiration and maybe restart the story with a different style of writing and a different vibe overall. However, I want to keep them available for viewing as a keepsake purpose and in case anyone actually enjoyed them and may want to just briefly read through them again.
          
          3) What groups should I write about now? 
          - my ultimate bias group is still EXO (yep even after all this time haha), however I stan many other groups too including NCT, Ateez, SVT, Day6, MONSTA X, Stray Kids, etc, etc. AND YES I DO STAN BTS STILL. However, I do have to admit that I stopped stanning them for a little while as I went through a period of time where their music didn’t really match my tastes, also, I stupidly allowed the overbearingness of the ARMY fandom and constant war between EXO-L and ARMY to influence my decision to stop keeping up with BTS. However, I began really enjoying their music again and found myself missing the members a lot so I resumed stanning them. 
          
          I will also be constantly thinking about a solution to all of these questions, but a little input would really help me☺️

(5) When I was at the ‘peak’ of my Wattpad journey a few years ago, I found myself so happy and proud writing for people who actually enjoyed it and asked for me to update. Of course I felt some pressure and stress when I couldn’t update or when I knew I was making people wait. However, the feeling of publishing a part and readers actually enjoying it was refreshing. I want to experience that feeling again. 
          
          So, I will embark on the second part of my writing journey here on Wattpad. I haven’t studied English language/literature since GCSE, so I hope I remember the basics and will teach myself skills so I can provide some quality content. I loved the ‘tingly’, happy, worry-free feeling I felt when I, as a reader, read good fan fictions. Reading and writing fan fictions to me felt like a different world from reality that allowed me to envision anything I wanted. So I hope, through writing I can also share the feeling with people who may be just like me, sometimes lost, sometimes unhappy, sometimes anxious and are just seeking a little bit of relief from reality. 

(4) Ever since starting my long holiday, I’ve barely done anything. I just stay at home and watch korean and chinese dramas, listen to k-pop music, occasionally work out and drive to pick up my siblings from school.
          
          [ALSO, I can drive now?!? That’s crazy? 2 years ago, I would’ve never imagined that 17/18 year old me would be able to drive, as it was too much of a ‘grown up thing’.]
          
          One of the things I recently started to do now that I’m on holiday and have nothing to do, is return to one of my old loves; fan fiction. I’ve been reading some fan fiction recently on Wattpad (haechan ones mainly, haha he’s my NCT bias) and while reading them, I find myself wanting to write again.
          So I’ve included writing on Wattpad again as one of the things I want to do this summer (along with actually learning Chinese because I’m a British born chinese yet suck at speaking Cantonese and can’t read or write chinese at all, study in advance for my university course, try to make a YouTube channel, etc).

(3) Looking back on my whole experience on Wattpad 2/more years ago makes me smile and strangely want to cry. I was younger, a lot more immature, a lot more carefree, and.. I lot more happier than I am now. Turning 18 was a turning point in my life and mindset. I realised I no longer had the excuse of being a ‘kid’ and was suddenly faced with so many decisions that I didn’t think I was capable of making. Is this what everyone goes through? The stress I’ve been through due to growing up, pressures from society and school and also pressure from myself has been overwhelming to say the least. It’s been so long since I’ve been completely worry-free, and even now I’m worrying about too many things like, my A-Level results, will I get into the university I applied to, if I don’t then what do I do? Should I get a part time job now, even though it’ll only be for a maximum of two months and I have different events to attend and a holiday I’m going on? What direction do I want to take in life? I just want to be worry-free for once. 
          And I know this is impossible for me personally as this is just the kind of person I have trained myself to be and it’s hard for me to change. So I at least want to be happier.
          

(2) It’s been over 2 years since I started my hiatus, promising that I’d come back after my GCSEs. Well... I’ve now even finished my A-Levels, which is crazy to me. I’m currently on a long holiday as I JUST finished my A-Levels.
          
          In these 2 years, I’ve barely touched Wattpad. I logged back in like once every 6 months just to go through some notifications, despite them all being story updates from other users because I unpublished all my works a while after I went on hiatus. I received some messages and comments before I unpublished my works and reading back on them made me think ‘wow, I had people who actually read my ‘work’ and appreciated it’. I JUST republished some of my works again to serve as a reminder of my previous works for anyone who may have read any of them and is currently reading this message.

(1) Wow.. it’s really been a while. It’s been so long that I don’t even know if anyone will read this, however, in case there is even one person who sees this or for myself even, I will continue..
          
          You may not remember me or any of my works (You’re So Cold; Oh Sehun, The Rentable Boyfriend, The Popular’s Class, In Love With My Bestfriend’s Boyfriend, etc) but I’m back.
          

Your stories are v good! I hope your GCSE exams went well. Hopefully we both did well. ❤️

i've missed you so much! welcome back!
          
          can't wait for all your updates! c: ♡