Castiel

Hello I'm still alive?????? This is an update i guess.
          I've been in an out of addiction, self harm, abuse, rape, whatever else, but I'm still here. It's been nearly 3 years since I stopped writing, but my last ever summer break just started so I thought about picking it up again, after all, I'm a bit rusty, but I could manage.
          I'm moving out of this house, moving cities, I'm gonna be finally living on my own, I'm starting a full time job and additional training beside it, in accounting which might not be the most fun thing in the world but I'm really good at maths and what can I say: It pays well, not well, but it gives me enough to survive. I found myself in the same position where I was years ago, even though I'm not moving countries, only cities, the same feeling fills my body when I moved countries when I was 12. It was the most difficult experience I had to deal with, but now, I'm more adjusted. I live in a small town currently, and I'm glad I spent my teenage years here. I made a lot of friends and I mean, It's quite sad that i'll 'lose' most of them (okay, we will meet up like once a month but still it's going to be very different) but I need to start a new life. My own life i guess. And I will fight and win on my own. A fight that we all have to do at some point in our lives. 
          After that I thought I might move to New Zealand and live in a commune. Warm climate, beautiful sights. I would like to save up for about 5 years and move into a commune there once I have enough money lol. Working a 9-5 until 70 would be torture. I want to farm. Live in a big community. Sit by the sea as I sip my morning tea. I want to write whenever I want and wherever I can. I want to make art. I want to write. I believe that this is my purpose. You could suffer all the pain in the world to be who you will never be. I'm a writer and that's all I'll ever be and ever would want to be. I'm happy.

Follow me on ig at @kiakosdeath if u want to see a person who looks like they're 12 appear on your timeline twice a month or you're just so lonely that you want to become friends with someone without a personality

You have all grown up to be so awesome, it makes me feel really good when i come back and see that the most precious work I've produced by hand is still just as loved as it was on the release day.
          
          This place definitely helped me to find myself in one way or another, and reflect the emotions and drastic unwantedness I always felt deep down.
          Even now, it's the same, but I'm know I'm not alone and there are some wonderful people out there who sadly feel the same.
          I miss you all so much, I miss writing, capturing my emotions, ideas and opinions on paper, It always meant a lot to me, as I was, for some reason always in a struggle with the way I expressed my emotions.
          I love you all so so so much, even though probably none of you even know my real name.
          
          This is just an appreciation post to all of you, and a heads up that I'm running out of time, I'm really really sick, and even though I really enjoy writing, I'm not sure if I'll have enough motivation to continue the novel I started, as I don't think I will have time to finish it and it would only result in great dissatisfaction, as well as I'm losing my friends over my sickness, so while they still care about me and I'm still here, I want to spend as much time with them as possible.
          
          If you feel like it, dm me here for my insta user, I'd be glad to make some new friends while I'm here.
          
          Love you all

Huh It's been almost 2 months since i posted here.
          I have 10 finished chapters from the book I haven't posted and I will not post it until I finished it.
          I'm not doing well at the moment, I have stuff going on, but it will get better eventually.
          I'm losing interest in things that I love, but I will NOT discountinue the book I'm currently working on.
          I would like to apologize for being inactive and I guess see y'all soon.
          I appreciate the support i get from you all and thanks for paying attention to this message.
          
          Kim

Suisside lowkey sounds like Lil Peep

Hi! I just want to thank every single one of you are reading my stories!
          'Manipulation' just reached 10K and I'm really thankful!
          A little update about me: I went back to my usual writing schedule and yesterday just finished chapter 5 of the story that I'm currently working on.
          Thank you so much once again
          o3o

Hey! I've started writing a book. I will post all the chapters at the same time, so I already have a few chapters written. I planned to post it around the end of October, but now I think it will take longer. The thing is that my best friend just attempted suicide today and I need some time to heal, process and rethink some things. But thank you for being patient and I appreciate every single one of you ♡
          

Hello! Does anyone know anything about the skephalo fanfic called 
           'Lover boy <3'?
          It was one of my favourites but I'm pretty sure it got unpublished *sobbing noises*

Did something happen to the book “the boy behind the white walls”? Just uhh curious 

Why the hell do you only have 10 followers mate? This is a crime