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I might be in love with a little girl. not romantically, but yes. I have no idea how, after so much time I've knows her is that I've fallen so hard. She makes me feel like I'm on the top of Mount everest and that's seriously a long way to fall from. I don't talk much to her, although I talk a lot about her. I don't catch her eye much, but i always gaze at her for long long moments as if she's a whole galaxy wrapped in a palm till she looks at me and I have to pretend I'm not even aware. She always has something to say before I've even spoken a word and I have the audacity to forget how to understand and just think about how blessed I am to have her. Then ofcourse, i understand so that I can respond. I don't matter that much to her, but if she'd ask me to stop my world my habits I'd do so. She doesn't tell me shit about her life but i strip my mind naked in front of her. She sometimes tears out my heart but then exactly knows how and where to put it perfectly back in place. Which arteries and veins located where. It's that type of love where you don't want to marry the person, don't want to date that person, don't want anything but to be with them forever. And it's weird. It's weird because reality starts crashing upon me the moment I realise how much I love her and how bad it would destroy me shatter me kill me, staying away from her. Ours schools will be different, same goes with our majors. Our lives will be seperate and it's so haunting, so horrifying I can barely breathe sometimes. The lump in my throat is think and heavy, tonnes of gold and silver and steel. I'm so scared. so unwilling to let her go, to give her up.