Chocolate_chol

chocolatteluvz

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          play 'an art gallery could never be as unique as you' before reading. 
          
          
          I might be in love with a little girl. not romantically, but yes. I have no idea how, after so much time I've knows her is that I've fallen so hard. She makes me feel like I'm on the top of Mount everest and that's seriously a long way to fall from. I don't talk much to her, although I talk a lot about her. I don't catch her eye much, but i always gaze at her for long long moments as if she's a whole galaxy wrapped in a palm till she looks at me and I have to pretend I'm not even aware. She always has something to say before I've even spoken a word and I have the audacity to forget how to understand and just think about how blessed I am to have her. Then ofcourse, i understand so that I can respond. I don't matter that much to her, but if she'd ask me to stop my world my habits I'd do so. She doesn't tell me shit about her life but i strip my mind naked in front of her. She sometimes tears out my heart but then exactly knows how and where to put it perfectly back in place. Which arteries and veins located where. It's that type of love where you don't want to marry the person, don't want to date that person, don't want anything but to be with them forever. And it's weird. It's weird because reality starts crashing upon me the moment I realise how much I love her and how bad it would destroy me shatter me kill me, staying away from her. Ours schools will be different, same goes with our majors. Our lives will be seperate and it's so haunting, so horrifying I can barely breathe sometimes. The lump in my throat is think and heavy, tonnes of gold and silver and steel. I'm so scared. so unwilling to let her go, to give her up. 
          
          

Chocolate_chol

@chocolatteluvz OMG STOP HOW AM I EVEN SUPPOSED TO RESPOND TO THAT PLEASE ARGHHH YK IM NOT TOO GOOD WITH WORDS BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU SO F'ING MUCH EVEN THOUGH I DON'T SHIW IT TOO MUCH BECAUSE LIKE IM BAD AT IT BUT ALWAYS KNOW THAT YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME AND YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING ILYSM AND STAY STRONG OKAY? 
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chocolatteluvz

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because she's sunlight and warmness and colours and butterflies and aesthetic and morale and everyone loves her and she loves everyone and she'll blend in so quickly and forget about me and I'm afraid that no matter how many times I look at the art in other museums, her colours will always be caught in my eyes.
            
            I'm so fucked. 
            
            I might be in love with a little girl.
            Just not romantically.
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chocolatteluvz

somewhere not near me? BITCH we're together at least for an hour each day. at least physically, even if not paying attention to each other. 

chocolatteluvz

No, love. I wouldn't want that. I would never want to be a burden or a problem in your life and that wasn't at all what I meant because I was just reacting to your location. Otherwise ily much more than you do. <3
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Chocolate_chol

@chocolatteluvz *ykw what face I would make at this statement of yours so insert that* omg I'm trying, love.  I - I have too many things to handle and I try to make time for everybody I try- argh nvm, you'll have more of my attention from tomorrow,  I'm sorry,  I  love you sm.
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sinxxna

PLEASE I LOVE YOUR BIO . YAY !!!!!
          
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Chocolate_chol

@sinxxna I told her that in the private chat ig, I certainly don't remember but yea
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chocolatteluvz

@sinxxna I SUGGESTED IT OK.
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chocolatteluvz

Refresh your wattpad

sinxxna

@chocolatteluvz rEfReSh yOuR wAtTpAD
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