Lisztomaniac

Yoooooo since my finals and Ramadan are near I won't be as active so I'm sorry bout dat anygays I wanted to make a theme inspired by Ramadan but idk how

Foxyy I missed youhh 
          mah babiee

There's too much going on (and I love it) I mean I'm barely getting sleep since my day is packed because of school so I'm busy all the time hence I don't overthink much now that Saturday and Sunday is off I did nothing on Saturday just overthink shit and fuck Sunday is still left to get through I wish I had school and the extra classes after so I could stop it

I'M GETTING OLD?! IM 13 AND I ALREADY HAVE WHITE HAIR! THE FUCK?!?! I JUST SAW MY 7TH STRAND OF WHITE HAIR?! EXAM STRESS PERHAPS BUT PLEASE THE ACTUAL HELL

I FOUND OUT THE REASON FOR ME FEELING SHITTY. 
          
          
          I got my satan's waterfall

Do my achievements not matter?! Tf I got first in the district and it's like just fine for my dad

What's with parents and bodyshaming? It sucks that the people meant to lift you up or add to you having a good self-image actually make me feel worse. Tmr there's this trip and we're supposed to get snacks and it's mandatory since it's a long trip to some educational site and we might get tired on the bus or whatever but dad just says you'll get fat I'm not buying it,— d:"why? I'm not buying you'll gain weight"
          Me: "alright" 'i pushed my plate of dinner away' and he's like
          D:"why aren't you eating? Okay fine I'll get it just eat" 
          But the thing is now I don't want to I'd rather sleep starving istg if I ever live old enough to have a kid or something if they aren't comfortable around me I failed in life

You mah babie now <33

A clearance since y'all seek mad; I am not mad at any of you ik well y'all have lives and it's fine I was just upset over my family issues sorryyy

I recieved a certificate of my previous exams two days ago and I didn't show it to anyone because it read "you scored 94.7% in science well done" but if my father dearest saw it he'd immediately question why not a 99 or a 100 and why only in science,what about English or SST? 
          
          He saw it a few minutes ago,came up to me and said well done as if he didn't just yell at me then asked if I wanted a chocolate and left. Came back a few minutes later. Asked what about the other subjects and why I didn't show it to him with that fucking indifferent tone
          
          I beg to god just kill me already please dude what tf did I do in my past life for this shit you could've given me to a family who was straight up abusive or just someone nice but no you decide to torture me with something so perfectly broken you don't know if they're genuinely nice or just straight up toxic every other moment Istfg I'll be killed at the PTM