ChrissWitDoubleS

Ok ok nako. Baka pwede na ko ulit mag sulat.

ChrissWitDoubleS

I recently lost a friend. And you know what hurts the most? The last conversation we had was a terrible fight. After that, he was rushed to the hospital. When I learned about this, I rushed to the hospital in the middle of work. All my anger towards him, it disappeared. I said, I don't care about the fight, all I wanted was for him to get better. Then after a week of visiting him, I visited him again at the hospital, without knowing it would be the last time. A ventilator attached to his mouth. Him coughing out blood. I felt his pain. I felt so useless. The only thing I could do was pray. Saying things I know he wanted to hear. But I never get to say sorry. I never had the guts to say it. I was ashamed of the people around us. But deep inside, I really wanted to say how sorry I am. How I wish I never said those words that hurt him just because of a stupid misunderstanding. When we left, her sister texted my friend. He was gone. It feels like he just waited for us for the last time. Then the last time I saw him was him laying in a body bag, looking restless, dirty, and in pain. I never had the courage to watch him go inside the furnace. I bawled my eyes out. Crying like a baby. It hurts. Until now, I blamed myself for what happened to him. If I just let my ego down for a day, maybe he will still be alive. Maybe we are still laughing together. Eating lunch together. Bonding together. So I am not okay. I really am not. I still blame myself til this day. Wherever you are bii, I really am sorry for all the things I've said back then. I was mad. And I never should've let it get to my head. But it did. I hurt you. I hope you can forgive me. I miss you. :(

ChrissWitDoubleS

Alam niyo. Ang dami kong stories sa draft. Sa daming tumatakbong stories sa utak ko hindi ko na alam saan magfofocus. Gusto ko ishare agad lahat sa inyo. Pero feeling ko wala ng magbabasa dahil sa tagal ko mag update. Tapos ngayon nawawalan na ko ulit ng gana kakaisip na wala ng magbabasa. Haha. I'm so weird and desperate jusmio marimar.

ChrissWitDoubleS

@Potatt_ooos Hello! Thank you so much po ha! I didn't know na may nagiintay pa ng updates ko. Though Di ko naman need ng madaming readers talaga, hehehe. Wishing lang ako na may magbasa pa din ng mga stories ko, yun lang. Iba kasi feeling pag may nakaka appreciate ng gawa ko kahit na I'm still a mess. Ingat po palagi ang thank you so much again!
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Potatt_ooos

@ChrissWitDoubleS keep posting po. Lowkey maraming naghihintay po sayo, di mo lang alam. It takes time naman po before makakuha ng maraming readers. Just keep posting, di mo po mamamalayan mas marami na yung nag iintay sayo.
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