idcrishika
Remember I love you❤️
idcrishika
You good? Are you healing?
idcrishika
@ChristopherSkz143 I'm sorry babe that you're going through a lot alone... I wish I was there with you... to hold you, to wipe off your tears, to give you a shoulder, to pat your head and take care of you... I wish I were there... I know it's been hard for you, tough every day, but know that I'm here... vent anything you want to and I'll listen... I may not be good at consoling people but I'm a good listener... so I'll always listen to you. And about losing your sight... have you contacted your doctor?? What did he say? What does it mean? Losing your sight completely? But how and why? There will be an option right? Just contact your doctor and tell me what did he say. I just pray that you get well soonnnnnn and start to laugh and forget all your pains. Just know I'm here if you ever wanna talk <333 Take care baby... please❤️
ChristopherSkz143
@idcrishika good? healing? I thought so. I really thought so. I was okay. that's what I thought. it had been two weeks since I last cried, but I then cried three hours straight. I really didn't want to cry that much, but my thoughts from before returned to me at that moment and other thoughts. look, I know there's things which don't have any solutions and I have to understand that, I really know, but... but I'm... I'm losing my sight. literally. I'm going blind, and it makes everything wayyy harder. I joke around with it, but it actually hurts to think I won't be able to see my family, skz, to write, to draw because I'll lose my sight. it's scary. even though my mom says she won't let me lose my sight, it's scary. I'm scared.
idcrishika
Hii babe... how are you love?
idcrishika
are you okay girly? everything's okay?
idcrishika
@ChristopherSkz143 true bro... you're right. And yes I do have anger issues (a lot). I think it’s genetic(i probably inherited it from my dad) I tried talking to her but she doesn’t understand... you know how desi parents are? You can never win a conversation even when you're right and they're wrong. Um... my dad suggested I pursue CA but I think I’ve also developed interest in the field and I believe it’ll be beneficial for me. And yepp I did paste it❤️
ChristopherSkz143
@idcrishika omg, I was so close to send it to you but accidentally touched my profile and lost it... again. okay, so. we all are so different with different ways of thinking, so, if there's a misunderstanding, it doesn't have to be the person who was saying the information's fault, not even the listener, it is just smth that'll always happen. do you have anger issues? have you tried to talk to your mother about this? ugh, college... idrk what to tell you, but... fighting! are you studying what you want to or did someone pick it for you? yeah, there are more and more responsibilities when you grow... will you? hehe, that's cute
idcrishika
@ChristopherSkz143 awwww...don't cry cutie<3 Well, It’s really confusing and frustrating right now. Sometimes I just can’t control my emotions—especially my words. I end up saying something stupid and hurt people who truly matter. I’m talking about my mom… Sometimes I fail to express myself properly, and then she says things that completely tear me apart. But I guess that’s how it is between parents and children. So, I’m not angry anymore. I just need to be more respectful and careful with how I phrase things. Also, with college starting soon and CA studies kicking in, things are about to get hectic. So many responsibilities… ugh. That's all my friend❤️ And yes...the sun will always be there waiting after the rain... I'll paste this in front of my study table<3
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heyy! i am 14 too! twins??
idcrishika
Hey! I just started my new Hyunjin fanfic — When You Look My Way! Would love for you to check it out if you get the time. Hope you like it!
https://www.wattpad.com/story/393450114?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=idcrishika
OtakuDaBest
@ChristopherSkz143 hm Damn damn, that's nice. Here it's just study study, study, and aim to get into good colleges. People do not see any stream (combination of subjects) other than science as something work studying. It's a very toxic culture. We have JEE (joint entrance exam, for engineering) and NEET (national entrance exam test, or so, for medical). Different colleges also have their own entrance exams, and there are different subjects as well. But the society is so orthodox, it does not see anything other than science fit. Like, people commit suicide and stuff while studying for the exams (JEE and NEET), or because they can't study the subjects of their choice. Funny, how we all need different things other than just engineers or doctors, but those are the only ones acknowledged well. Sorry, I started ranting. And I don't think you were very clear about Hannah. I just had this feeling, like, they way you talked, and how much she helped you and stuff. It wasn't very clear, just a random hunch. You're good.
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@ChristopherSkz143 can relate with the impulsive part, very badly. I almost lost control last week, my mother had problems with me looking at a fucking screen at night, apparently it's the proper time to sleep and shit. I had movie plans with my crush online. (Same guy who I've talked about) I realised I'm crazy because in the fit of my anger, I started laughing like a maniac at 1 am. I hope I didn't scare away my neighbours or smth. I kinda felt it about you liking "hannah". I just had a feeling. Idk why. Let's focus on studies. We have a long way ahead. I have two stressful ass years ahead of me, bcs high school in india is like all deciding. Whatever happens in these two years decides my future. So yeah. I need to focus. I've made promises with myself, and I don't want to relax until I've achieved them. I'm sure you have similar promises or aims. Let's do our best. Ps. That's why I'm sitting at a Domino's rn. Lol.
OtakuDaBest
HIIIII
I've been meaning to ask you... where are you from?
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@OtakuDaBest baby please tell me you're okay right now. sorry i stopped answering, i haven't opened wattpad in a while and it didn't send me the fucking notification of your message. pookie, whenever you read this, please answer asap. i wanna listen to every single one of your details if it makes you feel better. I'm so sorry. i wanted to answer before, i just didn't know how or when to start the conversation. remember i love you so much and I'm here. i promise i'll be here. i'll open wattpad everyday. please. tell me you're here. I'm here. you're not alone. let's not talk about me rn, it's just you. i'll focus on only you. please, please forgive me and answer asap please.
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hey girlie, i hope you're doing well? it's been a while.
i... was not so well. i spiralled, multuple times. sh'ed a couple times too. my bf? i'm gonna break up with him. shit happened. we hurt each other, very badly, but when i think about it, recently, it's been feeling very forced. the affection, the warmth. i've gone numb. i can't feel anything. i'm not hungry, i either sleep too much or too less. my health has gone down. my mental health is worse. i love you so much girl. i hope you're doing well
i just had to tell someone, and i really thought i should tell you. i missed you girlie. text back, yea? love you bae mwahh
OtakuDaBest
@ChristopherSkz143 YAYYYYYYY AS SOON AS YOU MAKE ONE TELL ME YOUR ID OKAYYYYY I WANNA FOLLOW YOUU OMGGGGG issokkkk how have you been these few days? i understand cause i'm drowning in schoolwork as well and plus my life altering (*cue the eyeroll*) exams are in like a year or smrth ( the first shift's in jan 2027) so yeeeeee pressuree is onnn i love you so muchh girlie pop mwah mwahhhh mwahhhhh come here anytime you need some warmth or smth i'm here mwah mwah mwah stay safe ily <333333333