Lexen

Happy Birthday twinnie❤️

{{Stay safe everyone, please be considerate of others and stay in your home unless you need to buy supplies. Please follow the safety tips from WHO and don't forget to wash your hands for at least 20 seconds and practice social distancing}}
          
          [I somehow started making this about myself so um just ignore this if you don't want to see my thought process]
          
          Online friends are the best when your real 'friends aren't there'
          
          Yet somehow, when an online friend goes MIA, to me it hits harder than a when a real friend does that to me. Maybe because it happened a lot to me in real life and I just mentally prepare myself waiting for it to happen again. Maybe because even through a screen, anything that I feel, I just feel as if the other person could feel it too. I know it sounds as if i'm really gullible to believe someone can understand my emotions through a text-based conversation. But here I am. 
          
          I get real worried when someone that I felt was close to me online, just doesn't respond to my messages for months or years. I just keep imagining the worst scenarios. Here I am, still worrying about you. Here I am just telling my feelings at 2:20 am, thinking if I should delete this. Most likely I will once I wake up from this cruel world. These cruel humans that just feed on hatred and makes others feel as if it was their fault, they were like this. Make others regret asking for help and making them feel as if their problems, as small or big as it is, were just nothing. 
          
          You need to act cold and feel nothing in order to not get hurt, is what I told myself. Yet recently I've been feeling really unstable. Maybe, I'm getting attached to people, maybe it's wrong to do this. Knowing that in the end, I will always be hurt.
          
          Anyways, I talked WAY too much. 
          So, for my last message in a while.
          
          @http-cardinal
          Please be safe and please don't stray from happiness. Find your spot and be happy

I'm a bad guy. 
          
          
          Help me, i'm so obsessed with Billie Eilish.

Contemplating death

DangerousFellows is so freaking sad. It's a mobile game ,but ;-; damn you Lawrence.

Ha, i'm living in the past with the old wattpad. Ha-

Happy New years 

°·I'm so done with people spraying there strong ass perfume in the air! Like yo, nice perfume or whatever spray it on your self and not in everyone's air because your about to make a hole in the O-Zone·°

°· I remember the time when I used to go to Wattpad everyday for 2 years, staring happily at the stories and reading all the updates. It was as if I couldn't live without it but now everyone is sad and distant. So, I have become distant too. I'll see you all later in maybe a month if you ever see this. Bye (adios). ·°

°· I'm coming back in like a month or two (as if I wasn't dead enough) just so my lovely Wattpady can solve this problem.·°