I want to cry- want to utter the damn feelings I don't want to admit.  I hate my friends and family;  sometimes want to look at their wobbly expressions- I want to be alone -run away, embrace my body, my scar -just want it to remain hidden forever - sealed forever ..

A life is like pain
 - pleasure (artificially)
 - friend (lie)
 - pride (never in my empty mind).

 Wondering why I want to die this far ...  I hate everything in this rotten society.

What I want to say 'why' everything has never been perfect ... once, only once ... I want to forget that life makes many turns ... its very wrong.

 People are complicated.