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hi, tumpang promote my new story ye? 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/371980023?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=zayalyan

My heart is for Palestine. I'll never stop reposting about Palestine on TikTok and sometimes I put some on my WhatsApp status. I hate to see them suffering and always put myself on their shoes.
          
          My heart also feel warmer after seeing the Germany joined Islam together just now. My heart is always for Palestine then or forever. Watermelon for them. 

Takde followers pun takpelah. Lagipun ini bulan Muharram, bulan dimana Imam Al-Hussein syahid cuba mempertahankan keluarganya.
          
          Malang seribu kali malang, kesemua keluarganya syahid sekaligus menamatkan keturunan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.

Eh btw i ada business tudung sendiri on Instagram and Tiktok.
          @/edscarves on Tiktok and Instagram. 
          
          Edscarves stand for Eyya Dhyna Scarves.

Thank you for those yang support. I tak reti solat I belajar solat, I mula mengaji semula, I started to cover my aurah and guess what. My fyp yang sebelum ni full with double meaning, sex, sekarang penuh dengan Islam, Abaya, Khimar dan sebagainya. Full of pretty woman with modest too. Cantik gila, sumpah. I love who I am now. Harapnya dengan perubahan ni takde hantu kacau nak masuk kamsis bulan depan ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

Ykw, I lahir dalam keluarga yang messed up. Bapak macam tak betul, sewel. Kena dera. Kena shaming. Kena pulau. That's normal for me but that turns me into something worse and be a full-time sinner. Setiap hari aku buat dosa. Setiap hari aku buat itu ini. Hidup tak terurus langsung.
          
          As I grew older, I realized it was just a phase. Now, I'm learning how to solat, how to correct my tajweed, how to stop porn. I learn everything. 
          
          I pun sayang nak buat Wattpad but I buang slow-slow sebab I pakai handphone tak boleh nak masuk Google and delete. Dia akan bawa ke apps so I akan buang sikit-sikit. 
          
          One day I'll be gone from wattpad and just disappear like that. Andai saya terkasar bahasa, maaf. Ya, saya sombong. Saya pemarah. Saya ikut semua sifat negatif bapak saya. 
          
          Jadi dengan ini saya perlahan-lahan mengundur diri. Dekat 6 tahun ya saya dalam dunia wattpad, tulis cerita bukan-bukan. Now I'll delete one by one. Maybe lepas sebulan? Dua bulan I akan delete semua sekali. Just- slowly. But surely. 
          
          It's okay kalau I takde followers pun kalau I keluarkan cerita dakwah nanti. I'm just tired of making sins. I wanna satisfy myself, not people. So if one day I'll gone and you're wondering where am I, what am I doing (kalau ada yang kisahlah) pergi je dekat IG. I'll always check my IG but tak aktif sangat kat sana lama-lama.
          
          So ni jelah nak cakap. I nak fokus akhirat juga. Kalau mati tu mati sorang-sorang, kena soal sorang-sorang, takde siapa boleh selamatkan dah. Terima kasih untuk semua tau! Mana yang support selama ni, terima kasih. 
          
          I still love everyone, you and you! <3

One day I'll delete everything on Wattpad and just write something with moral.

Every man, shut up. I have standards on my will-be-husband. Nak I hadap kena dera lagi ke? Nak I hadap air tumpah kena tendang ke? Nak I hadap kena tengking setiap hari ke? Ni pun mujur bapak I still waras tak rogol anak sendiri. 
          
          If you want me, do it the right way. Ini I dah terima you masuk, you minta benda bukan-bukan hanya sebab I suka buat story macamni?
          
          That story is for me, not for you stupid men. Aish. Penatlah nak handle lelaki jahanam macamni. Masalahnya hampir setiap hari tau. Rasa nak give up hidup.

Nah, untuk yang selalu suruh I published cerita dia sebab dia takde followers tu, I dah buka peluang. Dibayar lagi tu. Bolehlah tengok-tengok syarat dia dekat latest book.

Maybe i boleh try bercinta dengan masc tapi I nak yang duduk Johor/KL dan tak cringe. Kalau ada, adalah. Yang penting pandai carry conversation. I pun tak tahu kenapa lately I jadi blank nak mulakan conversation.