WARNING: RANT/VENT
I have mommy issues.
Don't get me wrong: I love my mom.
But she can be so complicated that it makes me want to go to my room and throw something. Normally if I have a problem with someone I know so well, I'd tell them the truth of what they're doing wrong and they're normally going to respond with "Wait what? I'm so sorry!" When I tell my mom what she's doing wrong, she'll get offended and pin the blame on me...
Example happened this morning:
Im an only child and I told my mom "Sometimes I wish I could have a sibling and I could just be the young sibling." Everyday-parents would say: "Why? You know we cannot do that but its okay because we already have you and we love you ^^ " My mom says: "If you had a older sibling, your papa would pay attention to them and not you."
My brains like "I never even mentioned papa and 2nd, I just wanted comfort because I feel like I'm not doing enough and I keep making mistakes- that just makes me feel worse ;-;"
She completely changed the whole subject and I felt like it was MY fault that I even mentioned it and if I say anything, she's gonna be offended and pin blame on me- ;-;
Thats why I feel guilty everytime she gets something for me. Its like she gets things for me and I do that in return? I feel f*cking terrible and I dont even know what I did wrong or said ;-; ... irdk what to do