Jyotsna

Hello every one :)
          I have changed my account which is @Clumsy_Bean_25 , so u can find the books in my reading list there too :)
          I won't be able to remain active here anymore so I would love to interact with u on my new account <3
          
          Thank you <3

I was randomly watching jungkook's latest VLIVE clips where he gushes about Tae's handsomeness.. And a thought came to my mind that what if they really are best BROS and STRAIGHT.. it terrified me 

I am in love with the series ' sh**ting stars ' really!!
          
          all the characters are great I love it
          
          I watched episode 14th today and it was the most 
          emotional episode for me..  my tears were so close to fall when the part of Lee Yoon woo 's funeral came.. I rarely cry over some movie or series.. I have to say it is one of my most favourites now!!❤️❤️❤️

I don't know why I am missing him so much when he is not even my boyfriend yet :(
          
          Ugh!! I won't be able to see him for like a week :'(
          

FINALLLLLYYYYY!!!!!!!!!
          
          MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!
          
          SUCH A WAIT HAS GOTTEN OFF MY SHOULDER
          
          I  CAN LIVE IN PEACE AGAIN!!!!

I am so happy I wanna squeal so loud!!!!! 
          Today was one of the best days ever despite being me sick 
          OH MY GOD he made my day so much better!!!
          I don't even know how to express my happiness 

Does nobody give a shit about me and my feelings?

Hey! I just experienced something today that I wanted to share with someone but I don't think I have anyone to share it with.. so I came here.. you can just ignore me if you don't wanna here about my boring but problematic life..
          
          So yesterday night I fought with my best friend about something that hurt me and made me feel like I always get used by everyone because of my helping nature.. today in school, I ignored him with my everything.. I was feeling really bad to ignore my bff.. and halfway through the day, he got a bad headache.. I watched him from afar how he was suffering from the headache.. I don't know why I started feeling sick seeing him like that.. at the end of the lesson I just went to where he sat keeping our fight aside.. just as I stood up to go to him my heart beat accelerated.. I took hi book from him to do his work for him and my heart was thumping in my chest idk why.. suddenly my hands started shaking and my breathing got ragged.. I realized I was having an anxiety attack and it was my first time experiencing something like that.. but thanks to Wattpad I have read many books related to these kind of attacks so I knew how to handle the situation otherwise I don't know what would have happened.. 
          
          I guess I got the anxiety attack because of the guilt that he was suffering because of me.. 
          I just wanted to get it off my chest and thank you to the one who read it ( as if there was someone) but I guess I will feel lighter now.. and I don't know what to feel about it.. I wanted to stay mad at him but I ended up being the one to say sorry I really hate it sometimes that I forgive everyone so easily.. I don't know what to feel about this situation now.. 
          Okay I will stop now I guess....