Looking Back, I thought I was wrapped in darkness. When, in fact, you were e already removing it quietly, walking me towards the Sun with you beside me. I was so torn by the pain that I carried that I couldn't see the light you were offering.
Instead of walking with you, I threw myself into the fire, thinking it was safer there, I know my mistakes now and I'm truly grateful you came and did things I never asked for and without realising it, you helped me heal.
Even if you don't know it and think otherwise, you did remove the darkness from me. Yes, it hurts that I lost you, but I believe everything happens for a reason. You wear a blessing, I misjudged you, maybe I was nothing but a weight you didn't need to carry, but to me you were light
No, I won't cling to the what ifs. I'll focus on myself on walking towards the Sun, you unknowingly showed me. I won't return to the darkness and step out of the shadow too. I'll grow, I'll become the person I was meant to be the one you always believed, I could become, I wasn't immature... just too hurt to see that a blessing was standing right in front of me until I lost you.
