ClytemnestrasScribe

I’m gonna be real fuckin honest with you guys…I haven’t written a damn thing since my dog died.

If you have been on the dumpster fire known as xhitter, you probably have some idea about what I have chosen to address today—
          
          So, due to some typical KDH hater fuckery, I have learned use of em dashes ( — ) is a common misconception that they are a dead giveaway of someone using AI for their writing. As someone who uses em dashes quite often (sometimes to a possibly concerning degree), I can assure all those concerned (if any)—
          
          I do not know how to use AI for writing and I have never used it for anything of the sort. Even in personal letters or communications for work, I’ve never once considered using it. Some people say it’s useful, but it’s just not for me. I have never used it and do not intend to.
          
          Just wanted to make that clear.
          
          I just really like using em dashes, okay? 

Can someone explain why readers are perfectly fine discussing a story they just read with others but cannot be bothered to tell the actual person who wrote it what they think?

I’ve woken up in a hospital. Got held in captivity in some wellness hellhole. My dog died. I fucking hate this country. I wanna burn it down.

…sigh.
          
          I am back in the US right now and it’s honestly pissing the ever loving fuck out of me. I am drinking again. A lot. I hate it here.

Thank you, it was worth the wait!!

Dear Reader,
          
          I am working through a bit of a block—nothing serious but just a whole lot going on IRL that’s distracting me from my brainrot. Hence, two updates for ‘the Manuscript’, but I am back to working on ‘indelible’ and then ‘counterfeit’. 
          
          …that’s it. Have a good one! -cs

Yeah. I deleted your comment.
          
          I also deleted your tiktok message.
          
          Might block you on both soon.
          
          No, you do not get to ask me. You also do not get a response.  And you most certainly do not get to demand for an update.
          
          It takes days to write these chapters. They take time. I was in a plane for almost 20 hours. I am exhausted and still looking at a full schedule the rest of the week. I couldn't even tell what day it was today.
          
          You can't even be bothered to drop a simple "thanks, b*tch" after reading literal thousands of words but when you feel like you've waited a little too long for a chapter, you drop in with your cutesy entitled pretty self to demand for *more* free sh*t? What exactly raised you? 
          
          Babe, you are catching me on a not-so-good day. Keep it cute.

Dear Reader,
          
          I am currently trying to finish the long overdue chapter for 'counterfeit' but I am...taking a moment to breathe before getting back into it.
          
          One of you asked me "why?" about the last entry for 'the Manuscript' and to be honest, I honestly didn't know then. I didn't even use my laptop to write that because it was so short and it was just a writing exercise that just randomly flowed while I was using my phone. I have never done that before and I don't know why that happened.
          
          But it did lead me to having a conversation with someone who read it and it was...well, I'd been a little sad since writing it (so much crying I could not explain) then we shared our experiences about nearly losing our partners. They pointed out something that I was aware I was doing but it was only then when they mentioned it when I realized...it wasn't normal, this thing I found myself doing everyday since my husband nearly died a year and a half ago.
          
          I witnessed him flatline twice and had to watch during those excruciating minutes for the doctors to bring him back.  For almost five minutes...he was gone.
          
          He's okay now though, but I really did not realize how messed up I still am over it...and it kind of depressed me even more.
          
          So, I called my therapist and there was a lot to work on there and we didn't know it then but apparently, we do need couple's counseling...because checking everyday to see if he is still breathing and wondering if he's gone simply because he overslept was...apparently very not normal. So, that was that.
          
          We went away for a bit and we went tech free. He's okay. So am I. But I am behind on my writing. And everything else.
          
          ...so why? I don't know. But I do put a lot of myself and my life into the stories I write. I don't know what that makes me, but I write what I know.
          
          Maybe that's the answer to that "why?"
          
          -btc_cs

Dear Reader, 
          
          I don’t know if you got an alert for an update but I hope not—I just had to go back into the latest chapter of ‘indelible’ to add one paragraph I forgot to edit in because it was written on my phone and left in the Notes app.
          
          To be clear, it does not change anything but it was something I really wanted to put in and completely forgot because it was written in the car as a quick scribble. I apologize for the inconvenience, if any, and (as always) thank you for your time! -btc_cs