Cocoinunderland

What’s on your mind?
          	
          	
          	Everything that contains nothingness and nothingness that is everything.
          	       
          	                
          	           
          	              
          	                
          	. Hello .

Cocoinunderland

My dog died Monday and my heart is literally being broken into tiny fragments and no place to put them so they just shatter on the ground.
          
          I keep looking at his picture and what is left of my heart skips a beat as my body tenses and the gut feeling wrenches my stomach around.
          
          I'm just so glad I got one last kiss and one last short afternoon with just you and me buddy. I'm glad we spent the last few hours of your life together and as painful as it was, I wouldn't change it. I would be with you no matter what Harry. 
          
          
          I miss you SO much Bear
          So so so much
          I love you
          I miss you
          Rest In Peace 
          My sweet Harry❤️

Cocoinunderland

She wanted to be a nurse.
          She wanted to leave the state.
          But when it hit it was a curse.
          That controlled her mind with a rope & lace. 
          
          R.I.P 
          
          November 30, 2000- December 19, 2016
          
          Burial service: December 31, 2016 at 10:00
          
          Anything but a Happy. New. Year. 

Cocoinunderland

I just told my dad something I never thought I would have to tell him and I feel drained and mutilated on the inside
          And I can't take the words back.
          Why did I say anything
          More importantly
          Why did I do everything so that I had to say something
          I want to catch my words
          
          "It would settle my stomach knots
          While unwinding tangled puppet strings
          That you had strung onto my thoughts 
          And my multitudinous things" -Me

Cocoinunderland

When all you do is tell a kid to get over the fact that they got abused, it pushes them back.
          It makes them feel stupid to have strong feelings about it and they seclude themselves,
          They worsen,
          They fester. 
          You don't keep telling them it gets better.
          Sure, there are days you can and will have to, but there are also days when you have to just let them be and understand they're in pain. That even though you're cured, they're still in a rough patch. Try to remember what that felt like and keep your thoughts to yourself. Remember: telling anyone you'll be fine repeatedly pushes them back even though it will or could eventually be true.