CoffeeLover_M

Overthinking again

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I know all this allowed by You. I surrender all my worries and fear. Please guide me tomorrow. Right now I know that I'm overthinking again. Thinking over and over what if they would put the weight to me. I guess that is the human nature. Pointing fingers and cleaning their hands. Using other people mistakes for their own expense. I know that it is not a good thing and I don't wanna fight back. But please, give me strength to deliver reasonably whatever I wanna say. It's hard for me to sleep right now but I'll try.

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I always wanted someone to like me and respect me. It feels like my happiness depend on how they see me. I feel bad when someone misinterpret me. I don't want to be like that anymore. I want to stop caring of how they see me. I want to be freed from my own cage. The cage inside my own head.

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I've always seen a homeless man after work. We have a service in the company since we have pandemic this year 2020. Each day, I noticed how cheerful he was. He was wearing a headset on his head. I knew it was not working. Probably a props. Some days I see him alone and some days he was with someone. But tonight, I saw him again.. Same place where he always sitted. He was alone and lost some weight. I feel so sad.. I knew he's been trying hard to feel normal and be okay despite of being homeless. But no matter how hard he tries.. I know it's hard. 
          
          Sometimes I wanted to ask our driver to drop me off to give something for him however I have no guts. For now, prayer is the only offer I could give. 
          
          I ask everyone who read this up to this end to pray for that homeless man. I also ask for all of us to be compassionate. Lets help one other. 
          
          If your reading this and feel how I feel. Please share this post. So everyone will be aware not everyone is fortunate enough. And if you feel you are fortunate, share the privilege as well. Lets help each other to feel better.