If anyone is struggling with depression my private messaging is open, no matter what situation you are in, weather you feel like there might be no way out or your just considering something risk at least talk to some one first, you could private message me and I will help to the very extent of my abilities.
I myself have depression and have only realized it recentally, I know what your going through, I am always here to talk. If I don't answer your message right away then I'm probably sleeping or busy. I AM NOT IGNORING you trust me.
Before you ever feel like doing anything, and I mean anything rash, considering calling suicide hotline or a depression hotline. If that isn't you r problem then there is a hotline for that.