ColorOfClay

Who knew you'd be hated for being who you are.

ColorOfClay

@Madden_needs_a_life ah it's ok it's from a song called Hated by Beartooth
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ColorOfClay

No matter what I do, I end up hurting myself. When I'm not cutting I'm starving myself. Or stabbing myself. Or punching myself, or burning myself, or hitting my head against stuff. It's like I can't get away from my masochistic ways no matter what I do. Guess I'm just a hopeless cause.

ColorOfClay

Hey, I know everyone has been struggling with what's going on right now, but I seriously am not doing well. I've been having suicidal thoughts again and I don't really know if I'll make it this time. I'm sorry if I'm being a burden again...
          I just don't know what to do. If anyone can spare a few minutes to chat, I'd really appreciate it.

ColorOfClay

@Madden_needs_a_life Thank you. I appreciate that you're trying to help. But with COVID-19 and the lockdowns and quarantines, I've been super stressed. Normally my friends are there to make me feel better, but now I can't even see most of them. I just don't know if I'll be able to do this for much longer.
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ColorOfClay

"And I swear it never had to end like this
          If I could just pretend 
          I'm not those things that you resent, my friend
          Just leave me here for dead
          'Cause I'm left with nothing
          But self destruction 
          Stare down the cliff to my descent into the deep end"