Nikki

The struggle to find a job is REAAAALLLLL
          
          on another note I got my food license so technically if I start selling food it IS legal

Happy Halloween for those going out and about.
          
          
          Meanwhile I will be in the process of finding a partner >:)))

The Matthew Holt grind is ON man do I want my baby to be real smhsmh (I have a type)
          
          I finished my resume and letter, so now all my work experience is in printed paper. I might go back to volunteering with kids again ngl, I miss being a TA and I absolutely loved my students. But I feel so OLD looking at them grow up TT-TT

I applied to be a receptionist at the doctors office, I feel like a fool but that's my anxiety and oh god do I wish I could just ide underneath everything. I do be listening to edit audios tho and for some weird reason they work.

Also, for those going into college between 2024-2025, FAFSA opens near December-ish? Not in October like all the others. A bit strange but I've never been one to question the government in case I end up deciding to work with them. Fat chance, but you never know

I'm looking into colleges a lot. Purdue University is a good one, I've heard good things about their online courses but I went to a college night where they told me about their majors.
          
          I can become a fully licensed doctor (full PhD) within six years.
          
          Now that still might seem like a lot but considering that it usually takes someone EIGHT years, and FAFSA gives out less money as each year passes for specific students (because they don't want people taking advantage) this is a steal.
          
          It sucks that I have to choose between one school or the other in Indiana (they have two locations) and I might not even get in, but it seems like a cool bet to tryout for.

I also understand that online, secrecy and shame is a big thing people often deal with. I'm wanting to make my community realize it's not shameful to talk about things or be curious. Obviously there's just plain boundaries, I'm not going to expose my address or tell others to expose their town names, but I am saying that asking for help or wanting to be curious about things I have an affinity for is no shame.
          
          If you guys want to know about my hospital visit (example) obviously I'm going to keep the name a secret and all the super duper details, but even the vague reason or how my hospital stay was is not an issue.
          
          I want to help others in ways I wasn't able to get help. And I don't want people feeling like they have no one because I want to be that person there for them. Not full on parent mode like my children of course (over the years our bond has become maternal and I am in contact with some) but as a mentor type thing.
          
          The idea of being the stepping stone for someone's future makes me ecstatic XD

Guess who is STILL alive
          
          And writing fanfics
          
          I'm taking a break year from college (official term: gap year) so I can focus on myself (got out the hospital recently) and figure out my future. Remember it's completely normal to not have your future planned out, but starting the process to plan I out is crucial.
          
          If anyone needs help planning I'm willing to lend an ear.
          
          I'm planning to become a receptionist, it's a good paying job and easy to follow, I can also make a career out of it. The plan is to work as the orthotics receptionist near me, finish my associates of art and go towards finishing an Associates of science, go to uni and focus on psychology. I'm debating about either becoming a full on psychologist at the psychiatrist center near me, a therapist, or maybe a tech for said psychiatric center.

Although I've been distant from the fandom, Technoblade was my reason to enter. The happiness, kindness and sarcasm he brought into his videos made everything better for my life during hard times. Now that he's actually gone, I want everyone to know that he will always be remembered. Technoblade never dies after all, and even if he's died in real life, he never died in my heart. I pray for the wellbeing of his family and friends, and I pray for those who were with him throughout this journey. I'm sure I'm not the only one hurting as a fan and follower of the blood god,, as I'm sure others are grieving. If you ever need to talk or rant, my pm's are open.
          
          May he rest in peace.

My friends love making au's between other animes. And with their recent infatuation of Spy x Family and rewatching demon slayer, they have come up with their own "grandeur" idea. And they want opinions on this AU of theirs.
          
          Emile & Ewen as Uzui and Rengoku (this came for the fact that other than being two iconic duos, you usually never see one without the other)
          
          Becky & Anya as Shinobu and Mitsuri (this is because the two are well alike in their companionship with each other)
          
          Damian as Iguro (she's still confused on this on because making him as Giyuu would be uncomfortable seeing as the two (Giyuu and Shinobu) are considered love interests and in canon they (Damian and Becky) are cousins. Making him Iguro would also keep up the love interest the two (Damian and Anya) have with each other in canon. The thing is Anya doesn't have a crush on Damian whilst Mitsuri does have a crush on Iguro (her words not mine.) SO we're still a bit troubled on that part.)
          
          We also tried remember this characters name from the manga who (I think) had a crush on Becky, but:
          1. We don't know (or remember) if his character could match up with Giyuu's character
          2. We can't remember nor find his name for the love of everything.
          
          
          But thoughts?