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This is a vent, and I don't really have proper friends, so why not vent to some strangers on the internet? Well, it's pathetic, is it not? I'm introverted, I know I am but I can never shut up. I'm so fucking lonely and I can't do jack shit about it because theres nothing unique about me. I'm always either the pity friend, or the last resort. I'm not funny or anything. The only thing I can think of about me is that I'm creative, but that's not ever thought of from the guys at school. I've tried to copy their personalities and make the same jokes, but I always mess it up and don't know my own personality anymore. I'm so fucking desperate for praise, but I know I'll never get it because I'm a guy so I have to just suck it up, be cool, be funny, and not get too emotional. I hate it, no one listens to what I have to say and when I have nothing to say no one wants to just sit there in silence with me. Because that's boring.