Milkshakes_From_Heaven

short update. sorry i’ve been slacking—i’m getting older faster than i can blink and i can’t seem to keep up.
          
          is it weird that i still miss you?
          
          moving on is picking up what i dropped but leaving what’s too heavy to carry behind. sometimes i wonder if i’m carrying the wrong things with me.
          
          i hope you’re resting peacefully. i hope there are cookies wherever you are.
          
          corny, but funny.
          
          hopefully i’ll be back in three months. and my birthday is in three months!
          
          look forward to it for me. rest easy kiddo.

cookies... i just posted this longgggggg paragraph talking about recent events and you and wattpad deleted it saying it was 'too long'. i hate this app.
          
          that’s why i moved to ao3 ehe.
          
          anyway. quick rundown since i’m upset at wattpad right now.
          
          my friend committed suicide a month ago. i hope you can meet her. she was wonderful and kind. you’d like her.
          
          the world’s been hauntingly quiet. it can be a curse sometimes.
          
          i’m currently into tears of themis and genshin impact, made my hoyoverse. you would’ve liked genshin. it came out late 2019 i believe, but i began playing june 2022.
          
          i tried to join you on dec 22, 2022. if i hadn’t taken myself to the hospital, i would’ve been dead by now. i wonder what made me do it.
          
          i’m still a writer. i’ve grown a lot. i even take commissions now. my most recent comm is a comfort fic for a young lady who has been struggling. she requested it last week, but i haven’t started it yet. i will tonight, though.
          
          of course i still miss you. i hope you’re resting well— you deserve it hon. i’ll see you when my time comes.
          
          if you see my friend, say hi to her for me. tell her i miss her.
          
          i’ll be back next year, hon. wait for me, okay?
          
          1/27/22.
          
          —luci

hey, hun. i missed last year because i was hospitalized.
          
          it's almost been four years now. i'm sending you this message a month early because i won't be around to send it on the proper date. i'm sorry.
          
          i hope you're resting easy. you deserved the world and more, and i wish i could have gave it to you when i had the chance.
          
          but i'm coming to see you. just wait for me, okay? i won't leave you alone again. you can trust me this time.

I didn't mean to find this account but now I did and I'm more depressed. Best wishes to the friends and family.

Hey! I’m back :D It’s been a whole 2 years now. Time sure flies, doesn’t it? 
          
          I’ve been doing pretty decent lately. School has been stressing me out a lot and I’ve been feeling kind of down lately, but overall I’m fine. I hope you’re doing good as well. 
          
          There hasn’t been anything new lately... Though, on Instagram, I met some new online friends! I love them a lot and they care a lot about me. My online best friend’s name is Steph, and I met her back in June of 2020. I also consider Nova and Joey very close friends of mine- who I met in August 2020. They’re really kind and nice, and I love them so much. 
          
          In November of 2020, I was added into this group chat where I made even more very good friends. Prince, Victor, Cap Lady (pfft), Frosty, Jesse, Alien, Isen, Cossette, Ash, Rose, Florian, Jaz, Ace, Akemi... some of them I’ve known for longer, but those are the code names of the people I’ve recently met. They’re so kind and caring.
          
          I also have a friend who’s username is Cookies. That did trigger me a bit, because it reminded me of you. But it’s okay, because you two don’t act alike! 
          
          I really wish you could’ve stayed just a bit longer so you could meet them. I’m sure you would’ve loved them! I know you’re shy but so was I but then we got along quickly, didn’t we? It would be great if we could talk like old times. I really wanted to read the story that you said you were going to write!!
          
          Anyways, thats just an update of how life’s been this past year. I’ll always remember you. I still sometimes reread our own convos and smile at them. I miss you a lot, okay? Don’t think that I don’t. 
          
          I’ll be back next year. Rest well, love. 

Hey friend.
          
          It’s been exactly one year since your death. Tragic, right? A year passed that fast. A year since you took your last breath. It’s crazy. 
          
          I’m sorry I didn’t reply to you that day... I’m sorry Hannah couldn’t talk you out of it. I spent a lot of time thinking, “What if I replied? Would you still be here? Did you think about us before you decided to end it all?” And I can’t help but feel it’s my fault. I’m sure you wouldn’t want me thinking this way but I can’t help it. Sorry.
          
          Remember when you told me you’d right a book so I can read what happened when you ran away from your parents for a year? Remember how you said you’d write it specifically for me to read?
          But you never did. Time moved on too quickly and you couldn’t keep up. It’s been a year. I year since we last talked, a year since you last messaged me... a year since I last clicked on this profile with tears clouding my vision. 
          
          As cheesy as it sounds, I wish you gave me a chance to say goodbye. If I couldn’t’ve talked you out of it, I could’ve at least said goodbye.
          
          I... I don’t even know your real name. Shameful, isn’t it? 
          
          I really wish you hadn’t done it... I really wish you waited, just a little bit longer for me to respond. I wish I hadn’t put my phone Do Not Disturb, I wish I hadn’t gone out that day, I wish, I wish, I wish. All I can do is wish, but it’s not going to bring you back, it it now?
          
          I guess I just want to say that I’m sorry. Sorry for not being there when you needed me the most. Sorry I let you down when you put your trust in me. I’m sorry I didn’t get to know you. I’m sorry this is all my fault.
          
          No matter what anyone says... it’ll always be my fault for not replying. But just know I care for you and love you, my dear friend, same goes for Hannah and your followers.
          
          May peace be with you.
          
          Goodbye. ❤️

Poor guy... 
          
          I hope he has a better life in heaven...

Hello. I’m sorry to say, that this isn’t @Cookies_From_Hell
          
          He won’t be using this account any longer.
          
          Sadly, he committed suicide an hour or so ago. However, the reasons why, I will not share.

Oh Lord, forgive my little jokes on Thee
          And I'll forgive Thee's great big one on me.

"And finally, from too much reading and too little sleeping, his brain dried up and he went completely out of his mind."
          This quote is me.