So as it turns out, I was suffering from depression without realizing. My motivation was also being killed by my ADHD, which I was medicated for, however it only helped the hyperactivity and lack of focus, it never did anything for my demotivation and serotonin/dopamine imbalance.
I am now on Adderall and antidepressants and doing much better, I have a couple of really close friends supporting me and I even have a partner now, I'm much happier than I was several months ago.
Perhaps with my mental improvement, I can start writing again, which I plan to do.