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I can't take it anymore. I want it to stop. I NEED it to stop. I'm falling short of what I should be able to do, failing at tests and papers that others ace. Not to mention the daymares. Daydreams that leave me in tears because of what they show me. My mom dying, bloodied up from the accident she got in. My girlfriend also dying, but in a hospital bed, her organs failing. I hate it. I FUCKING HATE IT. I want it to stop, but I don't want to die. If I die physically, so many others will die emotionally. I just want it to go away, leave me alone, let me breathe. I honestly am debating self harming, even though I know it's wrong. I know it's not the answer. But I often times ask myself, "What have I got to lose?"