@-L0c4l_K1ll3r- Ty I really appreciate that, and yea its just I have a very masochistic personality meaning I am drawn to people who cause me pain even when I dont wanna be around them, I am just "To kind" and I am a perfectionist. So when I make a mistake I just shut down and travel to a really really dark place. Idek why but thats what happens. But same for you, if you need someone to talk to I am also here