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Am I the only one who hopes my stepdad chokes and dies in his sleep almost every time he opens his mouth? I was given my own little shelf for the snacks I buy for myself, but I go crazy because I love to snack and he told me I could clear out a shelf below that one or clear off a bigger one in the pantry for all my stuff. I chose to do one below the other one because it was easier and it’s been fine for weeks, until today when he had a really bad day at work. He’s had an attitude since the moment he walked in the door and has only yelled at me and my sister. My brothers been fine. His cup was dirty, the laundry wasn’t done, my brother stole my seat the second I got up to do laundry and he said “there’s another one next to it” and it was covered in my brothers toys. I went to let the dogs out and suddenly my shelves were a problem “Clear your shit out, I said this and that and blah blah blah” he thinks he the big bad guy who can do whatever the fuck he wants because he’s in a bad fucking mood and I’m sick of his ass. Every fucking times he does this shit I can’t even say anything because my mom will side with him and his bad day and he’ll punish me for talking about him being his back. I want to run away but I’m scared to because he promised me the worst thing I’ve ever experienced if I do years ago when I first thought about it. I can’t take things out the way I used to (sh) because I’m past that and don’t wanna do something stupid but I don’t know what else to do and I don’t have someone to talk to. I was told I couldn’t go to therapy years ago because I know stuff that could get him landed in jail, not even lying that’s what he told me after “speaking to 11 different therapists” I’m just so sick of living here and my mom won’t let me live with anyone else because she’s afraid I’ll use them for stuff. What am I supposed to do