Lemoncat

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Crazy? I was crazy once

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I love so many people. Then I look at humanity and all I can see is the disgusting mess of it all.

Rant: 
          
          Sometimes I regret not killing myself when I had a chance. I know I still have that chance but I don't want to write another suicide letter, I don't want to have to wake up in a hospital to find out that I survived. I just want to kill myself in an easy way. I don't want to leave anyone behind and I know that at least one person would follow me dying. It was a promise we made so neither of us would die. I know that if one of us dies we are both dead. I know I would be dead if it weren't for them. I hate them so much. I love them so much that I'm living for them. I am so tired of not being able to properly express my emotions and it getting taken as me just not caring. I care so fucking much and I tried so goddamn hard for it all to just be a complet and utter waste of time. Though time is really just a count down till we all die. I know this is chaotic but whatever. Sometimes I want for my suicide to be painful. I want it to hurt simply because I feel I deserve it. This is a bad idea to write this all down where a bunch of strangers can just find it isn't it. I guess it doesn't matter in the end though. 
          
          
          

I know exactly who I want and who I want to be.

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Ahhh. Why do I do this to myself. I put myself in all these advanced classes and then on top of it I do a sport. I have 12 hour school days every day. I love it and hate it.