Madz Le Creature

Heeeeey
          
          So I haven't updated in a hot fuckin minute. Shit hit the fan, we had a loss in the family and we had to take in one of said family members cats meaning we now have two tabby boy cats (except Tyrone is still young at one and a half and the one we took in is 8) and we also have not only one of my nephews living with us, but also his younger sister. 
          
          All in all, my mental health and creativity have taken massive hits and I don't feel like doing anything other than making sure everything is going well for the kids and my dad and the cats and going to work twice a week.
          
          I am barely keeping myself above water here, so it might be a hell of a longer until I can find it within myself to update. Most apologies 

A new update OwO
          I just published "«New Kitty»" of my story "All About Me, Creature [part 2]". https://www.wattpad.com/1500898257?utm_source=android&utm_medium=profile&utm_content=share_published&wp_page=create_on_publish&wp_uname=CreatureChanLixQueen

Ya girl adopted a cat yesterday OwO his name is Tyrone and he's an absolute sweetheart. Shelter said he's super friendly, but I don't think they realised just how friendly haha. It's been one night and he's already snuggling up to me and rubbing his face all over mine 

Yes my new pfp is me. No I wasn't drunk, I just had a little too much blush on XD

I wanna write something like MLS...not like EXACTLY like MLS but I neeeeeed to write some chaos and murder and shit ＼(>_<)／
          
          Maybe I might try to rewrite that ChanBaek Mad Max AU that I tried out a couple years back...hm

So, because ya girl here is a clumsy ass bitch, I managed to fracture my ankle and foot last night. I have what's called an Evulsion Fracture; a small fracture but I also tore a ligament bad enough that it took flakes of bone with it that are now all in my foot all because I tripped off a frickin ditch XD
          
          Nearly 27 years I went without any breaks or fractures and my clumsy ass manages to do just that last night before I even managed to get stuff for dinner ._. 

Okay, okay, I actually am currently writing an ATEEZ Phantom of the Opera AU that mostly follows the 2004 movie plot with other bits and bobs from various fanfics I've read as well as certain bits from the book by Gaston Leroux that I can remember.
          
          Because I'm already following a largely memorable plot, I'm gonna actually finish this fic first BEFORE uploading it. Also, my fiancé @That1Multi is the beta reader of sorts (even tho they know little to nothing about PotO but whatever XD)

I may or may not have been basically YEETED back into my Phantom of the Opera phase, so if you see any one shots related to that or possibly even a kpop inspired story/oneshot related to that....no you didn't   (  ﾟ_ゝﾟ)

Pet grief is...an odd thing to go through to be honest. I don't know if any of you, my followers, have gone through it before or if you're going through it for the first time, but it is an odd thing to navigate. It's different to losing a human family member, and gor me it's always hurt more losing a pet over a human family member.
          
          For me, this is not my first time going through pet loss, it's my 5th but that's not to say I'm over the other losses. It's been about almost 17 years since I lost my first cat, and closer to 20 years since I lost my first dog, but that void is still there. They're smaller voids, but they're there and they always will be. 
          
          The void I feel after losing Luna, however, is bigger than when I lost my first cat. I know in my heart Luna was my soul cat snd thats ehy it hurts so much and i honestly feel like i lost a part of myself with her. Granted, it has only been 3 weeks since she passed and though the void is still big and raw, I may possibly be getting a new kitten soon. 
          
          Whenever you get a new pet after that loss, it can feel like you're replacing them. I can promise you, you're not but it does FEEL like you are. Don't let anyone judge you for getting a new pet sooner than most people either. Some people get a new pet just a couple days after their previous pet, and I'm already planning on getting another about a month after my Luna passed. It doesn't mean you've completely moved on, it just means you're ready to give another pet that same love you gave your previous one.
          
          Okay, that is all~

Please excuse the complete lack of updates recently. This last month has been a bit stressful. Almost a month ago, my nephew Jackson came to live with us (he's 14) so I've had to care for both him AND my dad, and between concerts, my cats passing, my dad getting into a fatal (he's fine, but the driver of the car passed away), and my dads arthritis making a painful comeback, shit has been going south so fast it's making my head spin.
          
          I swear I will get back to writing somewhat regularly when I have some downtime, but for right now I'm too stressed out to write anything