Cres

I always thought Wattpad was a bad dream until I come back 

So I uh suddenly started thinking about you. Hey zebra cake. I hope you're doing good

I do not need you, I never NEEDED you, I wanted you. I gave you an opportunity, a chance to create a piece of me I’d never forgot, not destroy my peace I worked so hard to create. Anything I need I can and will provide for myself, all I asked of you was to be who you said you would be, who you promised to be. If you cannot lead me to the peace I pursue, I will leave you in the pieces you desperately try to pick up- CJW 

When those that claim they will be there forever disappear, it is time to reassess what forever truly means to you. I do thank you for your time, but I do feel pain and almost anger for what was taken from me. In the time we had, dishonesty is what truly ended what we had. I do pray, and hope that in the future your life goes well. I have learned holding grudges and hating people isn’t worth it. I forgive you, I love you, and I pray that you do well. 

Still just as toxic as ever, wonderful. 

If I surrender to the monsters in me will it set me free? What’s the point of holding on like this when no one seems to care if I exist. There is no agony like being strong when no one knows your sick. If I surrender to the monsters in me will it set me free? If you could see under my skin you’d realize why I hold it in why it’s a fight I don’t want to win. If you could see all my abuse and spend a day in my shoes you’d realize why I just want to lose. 

Accept that love and happiness are emotions that YOU control. Learn to let go of sadness, pain, and fear. Control your life, don’t let your emotions control you. 

Hello everyone, I apologize for such a long absence. I had to take time for my physical health, as well as my mental health. I am okay, I hope you all had a great new year and Christmas. I had to learn to accept that the person that I love, will never feel the same as I do. It’s a troubling time indeed, however, I think I have accept that they have chosen a different path, I wish them the best in their endeavors. Furthermore, I hope that they find the happiness they were searching for. Moving on, I am feeling much better, physically, mentally I am getting help. I pray the best for all of you, those who like me and don’t. I wish the best for all of you, keep your heads up, life doesn’t get easier but it does get better. 

Hello zebra cake. I hope you're doing well <3

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