I love Cris you don't understand

STOP WHY ISNT WATTPAD BLOCKED AT MY SCHOOL?!?!??! HASDFHDIASKHJ

I NEED SAM  WINCHESTER X FTM REAXER NOW 

might updte my book idk its been a minute

my page is really flopping huh?

Why cant I just stay clean
          What the fuck is wrong with me
          Why cant I stop
          Why
          Why was I created like this?
          Its so hard to wantto stay alive anymore
          Theres only a few thinfs left that are keeping me heee
          here
          Ifeel so disgusting in my own skin
          I hate this body
          I hate myself
          I just want it all to stop
          I feel lik e Im gnponna explode and I fuckinghateit
          Annnd my charrger stopped workin and nobody is listening to me
          Im crying fot help and nobody
          notieces and just igmores me until I change the subject

Help

I try to smile a lot, but I'm always frontin'
          But I do love a ghost and at least that's somethin'
          She don't talk much, when she do it gets cold

Love..(I can't ignore you)
          In my room..(do anything for you baby) {tap tap}
          Love..(I do adore you)
          In my room..you and I...{Tap tap go the piece of ass}
          Love..(I can't ignore you)
          In my room..(do anything for you baby) {tap tap}
          Love..(I do adore you)
          In my room..you and I...{Tap tap go the piece of ass}

In my bedroom, with her I'm never alone
          And I kiss her cold lips until the morning come
          Then she gone, I can still hear her voice loom
          But she only exist in the dark of my room

So young and pretty it's too bad she past
          But she comes to my room and we talk at night
          She's demonic and bloody, but she holds me tight