This year hasn't felt like a year. Spring didn't fee l like spring, summer was the opposite of sunny, Halloween just felt like another day, and now after the events of last week, I'll never look at snow the same way again.
But if I'm gonna be honest, I don't feel like talking about the serious traumas of my life, and would much rather ramble about- you guessed it- my relationship issues.
Zora broke it off with me at the end of September, which has honestly been beneficial for the both of us. As much as I hate them, especially now that they're dating one of my best friends, I'm also grateful for them. Had they not gotten with said friend, I never would've realized my feelings for Hunter.
I moved to a new school this year after a shocking twist for the worst at my old school. I wasn't very popular there, so going into the new school, I still kept my reserved nature and waited for people to approach me, but was looking for new opportunities.
One approached me in the form of me and Hunter's mutual friend who we're gonna call Zelda. Now, I immediately thought that Zelda was the coolest looking person ever, so when she began talking to me, I was ecstatic. After about a month into being friends with her, I met Hunter. We all instantly clicked, but after a few times of Hunter being a little too nice to me, I developed a bit of a crush on him.
As school goes, somebody found out all because I didn't think something through before I said it. But now that this person knows this, they think that they can harass us. Even though it likely won't happen, I'm scared that Hunter will get too uncomfortable with all of the teasing and will distance himself from me.
But what's interesting, is that I don't even know if I like him as much anymore, or if I'm just suppressing it due to the harassment, as well as the fact that he's still always on my mind, but more anxiously. I'm constantly wondering what he's thinking, if he likes me, wondering if i get more pretty if he will like me, etc.
