I thought I'm healed but that's just what i think coz up untill now im still the same old girl who needs saving but no one lends a hand i keep on thinking that everythings all right until i realized its jus a wishful thinking before i always hope that everything can go back go what it used to be but i know better than that , whats in the past will always stay like that i can never undone what've already happen i just wanted to be happy how come its too difficult for me to achieve that. I still hope until now that one day i can be the old little girl that i used to be the girl who always smile and girl thats not broken because now i can never see myself being like that again i keep on wishing that i have powers to control time and turn it back to mychildhood days where my old self is genuinely happy but i cant. Because of my past i keep doubting my self if i was good enough. How could things turn out this way i never wish for anything but a ******** ****** how can i never achieve that. What ifs are always bugging in my mind ,what if i never let him go , what if i stop her that day , what if i did no go out taht exact day will things turn out differently? I hope behind this smilling face of mine i hope that even though there's only one person can see through my facade I'll be happy hope that he/she can lend me a hand and get me out of this dark, scary and colorless world of mine
