Crystal

'Course, I'm a know-it-all. My fatal flaw's pride and I have a hard time accepting that there's someone that can do something better than me (obviously if it's something I'm already good at, idc if they're better at me at something I'm HORRIBLE at), so maybe my anger at her using the calculator is me finding it hard to believe that I was failing sums that I should be able to do.
          
          But like, before we started doing fractions we were doing sums that allowed us to use the calculator, and I did perfectly fine. The values weren't that large, and it was fairly simple. It wasn't until I stopped using the calculator and she continued to use it that she started beating me at the calculations. I'm just so pissed off >:(
          
          Eh, I just hope I don't see her again. I think I've had enough. But knowing life, I probably will.
          
          Whatever. Feeling a bit better now :)

Like, wtf!?!?
          
          I was soo pissed. I just wanted to snap at the girl like, "We're not SUPPOSED to use the calculator!". 
          
          My main reason for being angry is that SHE got away with it. The teacher usually leaves the classroom while we're working at the sum, and then she uses the calculator while I'm using a pencil to work everything out. But she doesn't get caught, and when *I* used the cal just to, yk, check if my answer is correct, I get called out? Wtf???
          
          And then at the end of the lesson, the teacher tells us to do more questions without the calculators because we can't use it in the first paper, and she looks DIRECTLY AT *ME*! Like, girl, I barely even TOUCHED the calculator! 
          
          Honestly, I just wanted to throw my book and call it quits. I was done 

Really pissed right now because maths.
          
          So, I go to a 2 hour math class that's - USUALLY - really nice and peaceful. There's no need for socializing (I'm an introvert, so it's basically a dream come true) and it's not packed with students; just a few kids being taught by a young lady. Again, as an introvert, this class is my dream class. I dislike going to class in general, but going to this one makes me feel good on the inside in a way I can't really describe.
          
          Anyhow, today there was just me and another student. We were supposed to be revising on fractions - y'know, multiplication and stuff. I'm doing my IGCSEs next year so it's pretty complicated compared to what we learned in younger grades. Also, we were doing past paper questions. Confusing shit. 
          
          In paper one of our maths exam we're not allowed to use the calculator. Now, the sums we were doing included making divisions and multiplications that went BEYOND the multiplication tables we've learnt, so it takes a while to calculate the answers WITHOUT using a calculator, as well as it raises the chances of getting a wrong value that could mess up the entire sum. 
          
          The teacher made it clear that we shouldn't use calculators for the sum, and I, being an obedient student, followed her instructions. As a result, I made loads of mistakes. But like, the kid next to me was USING THE CALCULATOR? TO DO THE SAME SUMS? WHEN WE'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO USE THE CAL? AND THE TEACHER DIDN'T NOTICE WHEN SHE USED IT BUT CALLED ME OUT WHEN I FRIKING *TOUCHED* MY CAL BY CHANCE?!?!?!

✨AbRaCaDaBrA!✨
          You’ve been cursed!
          By my power you must now curse 10 people!

Anywayyyyys, after that lil episode I found out that I had received a spot in prize giving for being 1st in English (NO idea where that came from XD)
          
          Sooo, I is also kinda happy ^v^

So I is sad now :) 
          
          I don't think my classmates have a grudge against me, lol, shit like this happens all the time. But yk, they were mad at that moment, and I'm pretty sensitive (although they probably don't know that, I don't think my sensitivity is that obvious), so... Yeahhhh
          
          Was also tryna defend myself, cuz I KNEW that he'd start yelling for one reason or the other. It's sorta his thing. After he left my classmates started talking amongst themselves, because he got the class teacher involved, and the kids were frustrated because he's not a rlly good teacher... So they're gonna give feedback on him to the class teacher, since he's not teaching us properly. 
          
          Thing is, they have done this BEFORE, and it ended up with him yelling at us during the entire ICT period... Are my classmates just dumb or stubborn or have low empathy or what?? Bro did it once, he WILL yell at us again for issuing complaints. 
          
          And ofc, I'd been a dick so I didn't feel like I had the right to mention this. 
          
          Ig the important thing is, I know I'm in the wrong (probably... until he yells at us again for not doing questions without anyone reminding him about the questions, THEN I'll pull the 'haha I told you so!' on them UvU), and all's well that end's well. I'm just gonna be sad for a bit, I'll bounce right back tomorrow ^v^

Sooo, guess who had a shitty day at school??
          
          Haha... Yes, it's me, the one person that my own life seems to hate the most :> 
          
          I meannnn, it was going pretty okay... Until I screwed up. During ICT. 
          
          Cuz you see, we have two books for ICT; a question book and a note book. The teacher had taken our question books one week ago, and on the same day he had given us a question. Now, I was in the restroom when he gave the question, so when I came back I didn't have any time to write it down or answer it. I gave my book anyway. 
          
          It had been a week and he hadn't given it back yet, and I wanted to answer the frigging question, so I was like: "Hey, what happened to the Q/A book? It kinda like... poofed". The teacher was like "Wait, I'll give it" and then... He did what he always does.
          
          Yell at the class for some weird ahh reason. 
          
          I thought he was yelling that we haven't done the question, so when he told the kids to stand up if they haven't answered the question, I DID, but then he looked at me, confused, and said "You've already done it tho?" 
          
          Turns out he was yelling about a couple of questions that he'd given us TWO MONTHS AGO, and NOT the question he'd given us last week... So TECHNICALLY, he would've yelled at us anyways, but my classmates said I kinda sorta reminded him... And I kinda sorta DID... I just wanted my dang book, bro. 
          
          And anyways, he would've EVENTUALLY had to give our books back, so either way, him yelling at us for nearly half an hour was inevitable. It really doesn't matter if someone had reminded him or not...
          
          But yeah, I still screwed up :>

It's August 13 tomorrow 
          
          I'm scared.
          
          But I don't think I'll have to be, because apparently the whole ID thing can't be applied to foreign countries...? 
          
          So I'm hoping my country's laws or something sort of prevents that.
          
          But I'm still scared.
          
          Also, YouTube was my childhood... I don't know what I'd do without it. It'll probably murder my creativity (I get inspiration from YouTube). 
          
          ...
          
          Hopefully the ID crap doesn't happen. I'll be really happy if it doesn't. It could destroy my pathetic one week holiday if YouTube goes through with that 

Glad to get that all off my chest. I'm feeling great already! 
          
          (P.S. I think the teacher's choosing her favorite students for the board, along with the students who aren't up to standards. The 'bad' students are picked because she wants them to learn how to deal with responsibilities and stop getting into trouble, the good kids are picked so that the Board runs smoothly. It's just a theory that I thought of, probably not true, and I'm okay with most of the board, just not like two of them, haha)
          
          But mehhh, that's all... hopefully. I wanna have a shower so I kinda needed to let everything out... Otherwise I'll be stuck reviewing this in my head in repeat 

I do wonder if it's because I never submitted the application form, though. I was absent for one week straight because I was sick and I turned up on the first day of exams. Was going to ask the teacher if I could submit the form, but my friends told me she wasn't accepting them anymore and I sort of bailed. 
          
          I didn't tell my mom, and it's just a theory, but when I get the chance I'm tearing up the application form. I don't need my mom to start lecturing me. 
          
          Plus, the members of the Board are... questionable. The first in class, who is also a genuine sweetheart, is the secretary while some kid who's a bit too proud and isn't even in the Top 5 becomes president? Whaaaaat??? (What makes this worse is that she's my sworn enemy. She didn't do anything to me, and we hardly ever talk, but the moment I saw her I silently labeled her as my competition. Idk why, I just did. At least I'm not mean to her) 
          
          There's also another kid who became a member, and she CONSTANTLY gets yelled at by my class teacher. Idk anymore.
          
          I am pretty happy for the secretary, though, AND the girl who got selected for treasurer. She's the secretary's best friend and is also super nice! I knew she was going to be selected for treasurer, haha
          
          On another note, I'm starting to dislike my English teacher. I can't explain it, I think she's kind of mean. And, for legit no reason, I'm starting to dislike my class teacher - just a bit. Honestly, I think I'm starting to dislike ALL my teachers. 
          
          Weirdly enough, my Maths/Physics teacher is pretty okay. He gets mad a lot and is wayyy too fast, but bro went to India and got us all pens... AND he helps us out during the exams! 
          
          (I still don't like him tho)