For the first time another guy was interested in me, at first I thought he hated me for some reason because he would snatch things out of my hand and stare at me from across the classroom but he texted me trying to get to know me and saying he understands my social problems and he will be my friend but I ghosted him because I thought it was weird and I was scared of him fast forward after prom he said I looked handsome and he was interested in me, I didn’t realise it at first I felt so silly. I blocked him anyway because I was still scared again, I think I should date women instead it’s safer plus I don’t know his intentions were maybe he was only interested in me because I’m weak. Anyway I’m off to college now so there’s no use in it, maybe I’ll meet someone there (probably not) I’ll be lucky if I even make friends, it’s so scary though I need to see someone about my anxiety but I can’t right now I hope I manage fine. I found a can of larga in the bin, I’m waiting for the right time to drink it