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Happy national sisters day! Serenity...I just wanted you to know how much I love you. It kills me to know that your 5 and I wasn't there for 3 years of it. I wish that our mom wasn't such an asshole and I wish she wouldn't treat you like shit. I want to see you so much more. Fuck..you're turning 6 years old and I haven't even been in most of your life. Every day I think of you and I feel sick to my stomach thinking about what she is doing to you. I remember when my mom told me she was pregnant with you. I got mad and said that I wanted you to go away. You were stealing all the attention from me and my mom couldn't do anything with me. I even drew an X over my mom's stomach..and I regret it sooo much. You are the most important person in the world to me and I hope one day, you will be safe and we could actually have a sister sleepover...something that normal sisters do every night. Something that I wish I could do with you. Most siblings hate their sisters...but if you have a sister
please, please, love her as long as you can. Because without you serenity... there is an emptiness in my heart and it has been there since I first met you. I miss you so much..I just want the best for you. I want you to be safe,
you know what's sad. You came to my birthday and I asked you what mommy does during the day... and you said: "I sit in my room, and mommy locks the door..and I hear loud noises from outside the house.."
Serenity...If I was 18 I would adopt you. I miss you so much. I love you and you will always be the key to my heart. I know you won't read this...but one day when your older and discover wattpad and come across my account, find this post, and read it, I will always love you.
From your big sister,
Jaidan