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happy valentine's day 

Part 2 of toxic friendships
          
          My second toxic friend came directly after my first one ended. She was even worse than the last one. She was extremely controlling and she would guilt trip and gaslight me all the time. Whenever I tried to make other friends she would tell me they bullied her and that she would be upset or she would get mad and yell at me. She wouldn't pay attention to me unless she was hàving a bad day and would rant to me about how horrible her life was. Whenever I tried to interject, she would say that I didn't know anything. The kids in our class didn't like her at all and they would always insult her, calling her Baka. I knew this was wrong but I still stayed friends with her. I've always looked at things through rose-tinted glasses. Eventually, I confronted her about all this and she just accused me of going against her and yelled at me and I finally decided to cut her off. I was friends with her for roughly a year and a half. She wasn’t a bad kid she just had some issues. I don't excuse her behavior, especially to the students and myself but I know she's a good kid, I saw it with my own eyes. She did care about me, in her own twisted way. She was just really bad at controlling her emotions and had anger issues. I hope she's doing better now. I do miss her in a way.

Alright, let's talk toxic relationships! Both of these are friendships btw. My first one was my first friend. She was my only friend when I was in kindergarten. While we were friends, I was basically her servant. She would make me carry her stuff, do her homework, and stuff like that. This being my first friendship, I thought this kind of stuff was normal. Once, I actually took my mom's bracelet and gave it to her(that's a story for another day). She would barely talk to me and when she did it was to ask me to do something for her. We stopped being friends in second grade because she got "new friends".

So I'm bored so imma use this as a storytime kinda thing. Alright first one, Once I went to an amusement park with my two older cousins. It was fun. Eell until we got on the ferris wheel. The second we got on, both my sister and my cousins started freaking out because of how high we were. Me, being a little shit at the time, pointed out how high we were EVER TIME we reached the top. What made it worse was that the ferris wheel kept stopping randomly, which freaked them out even more. Worse yet, you know how when you're on a ferris wheel, you usually go around for about 4 or 5 times before getting off? Well we were on that thing for 36 consecutive rounds. We only got off cuz I was feeling sick. We got pizza later so all was well.