Cursed_soul___
New chapter
https://www.wattpad.com/story/317896964
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I never imagined myself to be in a state where I'm today, waking up every morning with a constant urge to end everything and free myself from this miserable life, from the pain, from anxiety, depression. The urge of killing myself in growing rapidly with each passing second, those suicidal thoughts are overpowering. I have so much to say but words can't escape my mouth, I remain silent cause I know there is no one around me who will understand my perspective.
Growing up in an environment where you have been constantly judged for everything by your own toxic family, when they always tells you to be like someone's else and you do everything you can to be like how they wants you to be and in the process you completely losses yourself.
And they ask you, why are you behaving like this ? How do I tell them that they are reason I'm became like this., they're the reason that I'm dead inside now cause I remember everything they said to me, everything they did to me. I remember I was in front of all the relatives and everyone including my parents started telling me, why are you like this ? Look at your cousin he is persuing mbbs, he is hard working, be like him. I remember when everyone around me constantly mocked me saying you can't do anything in your life, how will you survive like this ? How will you live in this world like this ? Loose some weight otherwise no one will marry you, my face is the most ugliest in my family, no one will like me cause of my appearance, I was constantly listening all these things since I was 10, how do I tell them that I lost my entire childhood and my adulthood just to impress them.
I know my life is a mess, I know no one will accept me, I know I'm a failure but that doesn't mean that I never tried, I did my best and now I'm tired, I just want to give up cause I lost every single ounce of hope I had, I can't take this anymore. It's killing me everyday.
TheRose-zh
@TheSilly_Masakali I am really sad to read that you are feeling like this. That other people, who btw are not worth more than you, made you feel like this. Don’t give up hope! Don’t let the words of others be your own words. You decide on your life. You have your own path, be aware of it and don’t feel bad because other people think that your path should be the same as others. You are unique! Your time will come as long as you don’t give up. If you believe in a higher being hold on to it, communicate with your lord, pray. Don’t lose faith! However, if you don’t believe in a higher being, don’t forget that you have a place on this earth and you are worth it and you have this life so live it to the fullest. No other person has the right to take it from you as long as you don’t give up. Don’t forget that we are all human beings, we are all equals. If they matter than so do you! They may have influenced your past and present, but it is up to you to not let them influence your future and tomorrow. Take time to decide what it is that you want for yourself and go for it, every day is a new day and therefor a new beginning. I hope that my words have helped you in any way and that you don’t give up on yourself. You matter, you’re worth it and you’re beautiful! Believe it because your thoughts and feelings are the only one that should matter. Don’t let other people bring you down.
zarry_heart_jade
Updates plssssssssssssssssss (༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ)(༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ)
Cursed_soul___
Can anyone help me in finding the zarry story qurbat ? It was in my reading list but I don't know what happened ? It's just disappeared.
Zayn_i_am_listening
@TheSilly_Masakali the account is not there ....it was my favourite acc all stories were amazing
Cursed_soul___
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!❤️
I'm back after a long ass break. I missed you all.
Soon I'll be back with new chapters!!
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zarry_heart_jade
Hey dear... Plsssssssssssssssssssss update your stories ❤️
Zayn_i_am_listening
Where are you??? Missing you
CrystalCastleO_o
Where are you? (˘･﹏･˘) Plzzzzzzzz update Sayonee ❤️
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LaetyNyunyu
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zarry_heart_jade
Update plssssssssssssssssss ಥ‿ಥಥ‿ಥಥ‿ಥ
