Cxddling_Lxuis

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hey guys!
          	
          	Cxddling_Lxuis (a.k.a Brittany) here! I feel like I owe you guys an explanation as to why I've been shit at updating my fanfics, if you read them that is. Over the past few years I've been fighting depression and anxiety. Over the past month I've reached out for help and I'm currently in the process of getting referred to a Councillor. 
          	
          	With depression I found it extremely hard to focus on things, I found it hard to find the motivation to get out of bed and shower let alone the motivation to update my stories. I found it hard to talk with my nearest and dearest and I found it Hard to shut my mind off when I needed a break. 
          	
          	Every minute of the day I found myself thinking negatively about my life and everything surrounding me! I couldn't talk to anyone because I felt they could understand me so I kept everything to myself, I bottled it all up and I was so tired of doing that, I was so tired of feeling like I was drowning but I wasn't in water. I was tired of screaming for help with no one to hear me. So I took control of it and I got help. I'm still undecided on how I feel about it all but hopefully it will all turn out right in the end.
          	
          	I'm hoping to be back in the swing of things and updating all my stories regularly because I freaking miss writing, even if it is crap. I miss the freedom it gave me. 
          	
          	Thank you all for reading this and I hope you continue to read my stories. 
          	
          	All the love. x 
          	Brittany

ilixr5

@ Cxddling_Lxuis  please honey be good and be safe and please update the me or popularity fiction and continue making us smile and I love you so don't think of being sad and depressed bc we all need ans deserve to be happy 
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LarryZiamNiBuddie

I hope u doing good. 
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AcrimoniaH

@Cxddling_Lxuis I've just found your profile and read this. I hope you won't give up. Send you a lot of love!
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Cxddling_Lxuis

this message may be offensive
hey guys!
          
          Cxddling_Lxuis (a.k.a Brittany) here! I feel like I owe you guys an explanation as to why I've been shit at updating my fanfics, if you read them that is. Over the past few years I've been fighting depression and anxiety. Over the past month I've reached out for help and I'm currently in the process of getting referred to a Councillor. 
          
          With depression I found it extremely hard to focus on things, I found it hard to find the motivation to get out of bed and shower let alone the motivation to update my stories. I found it hard to talk with my nearest and dearest and I found it Hard to shut my mind off when I needed a break. 
          
          Every minute of the day I found myself thinking negatively about my life and everything surrounding me! I couldn't talk to anyone because I felt they could understand me so I kept everything to myself, I bottled it all up and I was so tired of doing that, I was so tired of feeling like I was drowning but I wasn't in water. I was tired of screaming for help with no one to hear me. So I took control of it and I got help. I'm still undecided on how I feel about it all but hopefully it will all turn out right in the end.
          
          I'm hoping to be back in the swing of things and updating all my stories regularly because I freaking miss writing, even if it is crap. I miss the freedom it gave me. 
          
          Thank you all for reading this and I hope you continue to read my stories. 
          
          All the love. x 
          Brittany

ilixr5

@ Cxddling_Lxuis  please honey be good and be safe and please update the me or popularity fiction and continue making us smile and I love you so don't think of being sad and depressed bc we all need ans deserve to be happy 
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LarryZiamNiBuddie

I hope u doing good. 
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AcrimoniaH

@Cxddling_Lxuis I've just found your profile and read this. I hope you won't give up. Send you a lot of love!
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Cxddling_Lxuis

Hi guys,
          If any of you are reading any of my fics, you'll see that I haven't updated some of them in a while. I want to apologise and i want to give you a little explanation as to why I haven't been updating regularly.
          Okay so, in the past two months or so, I haven't been in the best of health, mentally, I know you've probably heard all this before and are tired of hearing it but my depression and anxiety is getting worse and worse with time passing. I'm afraid to tell my mother about it, because I know what the answer will be. "I'll get over it." or "There's nothing wrong with you." 
          I'm so tired lately and I don't know what to do with myself. I'm starting mt first day of my last year in school on the 31st of August and I'm dreading it already. Just knowing what I'm going back too is sending  me into anxiety attacks and my migraines are coming back stronger than before. 
          I'm sorry for not updating like I use too, but maybe once I go back to school and get back into a routine and maybe get the help I need, I'll start updating more, but until then, I'm going to take the next two weeks off and focus on my writing and myself. 
          Thank you for taking the time to read this and I  hope you all understand where I'm coming from. 
          All the love. X
          Brittany.

Cxddling_Lxuis

Hello! 
          
          If you happen to be reading this, I have written this because I want to let you know about the new fanfic I have recently published!
          
          It's called Pacify Her and it is of course a Larry Stylinson Fanfic based off the song Pacify Her by The Queen herself Melanie Martinez! 
          
          It would mean a lot to me if you read it and possibly Vote and Comment on it! I mean you totally don't have to but it would mean a lot! 
          
          Thank you for taking the time to read this, I shall let you carry on with your life now!
          
          All the love. X
          Brittany. 

Cxddling_Lxuis

Hey guys! 
          
          I don't normally write here but I just want to let you know about my lack of updates, if you read my stories. 
          
          Lately I've been going through a few things and it's taking up a lot of my time. My head a little all over the place and it's causing a difficulty.
          
          I'm also finding it hard to think of new storylines, things to happen and just the general plot.
          
          But I'm in the middle of updating both Falling For My Student and You're Perfect To Me, so the should but up soon! 
          
          Thank you all for being so patient with me and I'm so sorry, 
          
          All the love. X 
          Brittany. 

Cxddling_Lxuis

Hi guys, 
          I was just wondering, does anyone know any websites or apps that could help me make a cover for a new fanfic?
          Please can you help me? It would mean the world to me. 
          Thanks, love lots,
          Brittany. xx

ilixr5

@ Cxddling_Lxuis  when are you gonna update the me or popularity fiction I'm soooooo excited to read it please 
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