What am I supposed to do with myself? Im not happy I can't just countinue pretending like I'm okay with what's happened so far this year and the year has only just begun which means that there's still so much left in stock for the rest of it. I keep telling myself I can do it ,I tell myself that I'm strong enough to just deal with it and that I'll be okay but im lying to myself, I'm crumbling on the inside I want to be happy so bad but I just can't be anymore... This app in it self holds so many memories all of which hurt to think about... but I can't just pull myself to delete it... it may sound crazy but even though all the memories are painful I can't let go...I don't know why but I can't...