Zyreal

Am i still into him like I was feeling before while we are tgt laughing at our silly jokes? 
          
          Maybe yes and Maybe not anymore.
          Still him but it's like I idolize him not into him anymore. 
          
          In other words, I just fell apart and no body is there to lend a hand and helped me up. It was only me.
          
          So, I moved on. 

Just wanted to share something. 
          
          These past few days, I feel so tired, exhausted, lonely and feel so useless. My head tells me to give up and want to end my life. I Know it's not that good to think but... it's just there. 
          
          Then Last night, after sa shifting ko sa trabaho at naglakad papunta sa jeepney stop para mag-antay ng masasakyan. There was this big tv na parang billboard sa laki and I was looking at it accidentally out of nowhere and the message on it said, "We need to talk. — God." 
          
          That simple message just made me teared up for awhile because God never fail to surprise me with his way of sending me messages and made me realize that I should talk to him, pray and let out my fraustrations, my sadness, my pain that I am feeling inside me that no one knows but me and Him. 
          
          He don't want to end my life. Really, God is good. ALL THE TIME! AMEN. 

im tired, too tired.

when you are fine but at the same time, you are not. 

happy birthday to my precious love, MIN SUGA (ﾉﾟ▽ﾟ)ﾉヽ(ﾟ∀ﾟ)ﾉ♥♥♥♥♥ 

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Be glad what you have now. 
          Be good because not everythings going to be alright.
          Be fine because someone needs you.
          Be you because you need it :) 

damn 'SAVE ME' webtoon just burst out everything theories we had been all along !!! and now euphoria isn't happy song for me because i can feel pain now. Kaya naman pala nung sinearch ko yung meaning ng euphoria nung pagkalabas na pagkalabas talaga ng album, medyo naguluhan ako kasi bakit ganun? happy song naman siy pakinggan pero ang totoo pala ay isng dark and deep ang nangyayari sa kanta na yon which is mindblowing grabe :( nakakaiyak :( 
          
          and just like how a person is. Masaya nga siya sa panlabas na anyo, sa mga naririnig mo sa kanya pero ang totoo ay nahihirapan na siya sa kabila ng lahat. Kung tutuusin, ang melody ng kanta ay isang maskara lamang pero behind that mask is the truth that is untold. And I felt that. :( 
          
          Now, I am falling inlove deep into BTS and Bighit because of their minds and everything they are. They symbolizes family indeed but... we all know, that every good we see has something dark behind of everything what happens. Because after all, we are humans. We make mistakes and such. *sigh... i-im sobbinggvgggggg :( 

Happy Christmas everyone! :)