I just remembered why I started reading fanfictions, it was a distraction from my life. I was able to be taken away from my brother, I couldn't feel the pain of his punches when I was reading. I could get away from my sister, I could ignore her lashings of how I will be nothing in life. It gave me a feeling of love that I got while my parents argued. It was a base for me while my mother used me to spy on my dad because he was texting other girls about stuff I shouldn't have known about. Fan fictions was my escape every time something went wrong. My life worsened so I read more, my days became agony so I only read. This is my escape, reading is my escape. I could still see through the tears. I could still smile through the pain.