Master Babybear

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I watch things that happened to me,so I can fully understand what happened.those things have an umbrella of other stuff.  I watch that so I don't miss anything out.

I've locked myself in my bedroom,because I don't wanna talk to my best friends family about my coping mechanism. And the weird stuff that straddles on my back as a nasty shadow that is holding my life and my decisions and my rationality by the reins and pulling it to a path of self sabotage and breaking trust with those of whom I love.  I'm scared and I'm trying to cry  but my eyes are to dry to cry. All my tears have been used up.

I wanna cry but my eyes are all out of tears and my heart is numb.

Opening up about your past to someone you love and trust more than anyone  feels fucking amazing and has made me trust and love her even more.normally people run away when they hear what I am and what I like doing,before they even gov3 me a chance to explain why I do it and why I like it. And why it makes me feel safe and makes me happy.

Would people read stories about my past memories. My traumatic gory abuse and neglect filled past.  It has t9 attract some sort of audience.

I'm really struggling with my mh rn.  I was k8cked out of my mums house.   She adopted me at 5.   I was born into abuse and neglect and torture.  I was then treated like a slave by my adopted mum.  And she finally kicked me out.  Now I'm living at my best friend's house and their parents are taking parental responsibilities for me. I'm feeling unwanted and unloved and abandoned. Like I've felt all my life. I'm seriously contemplating suicide.

My gf is so beautiful.and I can't wait to get diapered and snuggle and watch a movie with her.  I wanna be free from m6 past with her

I am the demon of connection and coincidence,I am the demon of conflict and violence,I am the bringer of fear and also the bringer of peace,I am a unique species 9f demon,I am here for humans.

I am a demon. I was sent to earth by goed and I was commanded to be human. My wings were removed from sight.  Yet their power remains,I was stripped of my horns and my skin,I was given the body of a deceased baby.i gave the mother a chance she abused me. And i felt pain. This body grows. Yet it won't be mine forever.