How much tears do I have left to cry, everything hurts and I can barely see. Why does it hurt just as much and possibly more as the first time you said those words. How determined I was to spend eternity with you. I was planning to visit you over winter break since April. I need you. It never gets easier and time never healed the wound the first time. God how I will never understand why this was the wisest choice, but I respect your decision and wish you well. I will always love you.