I came back here to remember the old days.
It saddens me that you couldn’t even accept only just a friendship between us. You kicked me out of your life right before the new year. My new year started with heart break. It hurts so so so much . I loved you . I still love you . You were my first love and I wish I knew you’d be my downfall . I wish I knew you’d be the one who made me not smile anymore or even want to see a single dodgers jersey or cap anywhere.
I wanted so badly to hurt you the way you did me , and just make you feel every single piece of pain I had when you left .
I wanted you to feel every tear and every sob I wasted on a man like you .
It’s taken me some time to realize that you just don’t deserve me . I finally know my self worth and value . I’m worth too much for a man like you . I’m going to grow and become the biggest and bestest thing in the world . I know I am and you surely know I am . I have my own love for myself and that’s all I need .
I really wish you the best Micheal and I hope you’re happy .
