Danger_Grenade

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Many of you may not see this, but if you are reading thanks. At one point music was enough for me to survive. Then my best friend was the only one that could hold me back from killing myself. Now I'm afraid that's not enough anymore. Every time I find a reason to live for my parents seem to work really hard to break it. I started self-harming again. I started again with my anxiety attacks. I'm afraid I can fight this war anymore. I'm really afraid. I'm drowning in my own fear. I hear again all the voices in my head telling me to kill myself. This is not a suicide note, but I'm afraid it could become one. I'm started thinking again the world will be better without me.

Danger_Grenade

this message may be offensive 
Many of you may not see this, but if you are reading thanks. At one point music was enough for me to survive. Then my best friend was the only one that could hold me back from killing myself. Now I'm afraid that's not enough anymore. Every time I find a reason to live for my parents seem to work really hard to break it. I started self-harming again. I started again with my anxiety attacks. I'm afraid I can fight this war anymore. I'm really afraid. I'm drowning in my own fear. I hear again all the voices in my head telling me to kill myself. This is not a suicide note, but I'm afraid it could become one. I'm started thinking again the world will be better without me.

Danger_Grenade

I'm not a directioner or a fan of 1D. On Wednesday 25th I discovered that Zayn Malik dropped 1D. I didn't care and I laughed at my friends that where crying for this. The next day I made jokes about this. My best friend is a directioner. She was wearing a jacket of 1D. At English class I was joking and laughing about 1D. I made a joke and my best friend got a little angry. That was when it hit me. I could see pain in her eyes. I could see how she cried her heart out after she knew Zayn left 1D. As many people know I'm a Killjoy. I'm part of the MCR army. I remembered how much it hurt when MCR broke up. It was really hard to find a reason to live for after MCR broke up. So, what I'm trying to say is that it's hard to go trough something like this. I know it's hard and I'm sorry for all the directioner out there. When MCR broke up I had to understand it was for the best. If MCR where still a band they would be drug addicts and alcoholics. So directioners out there you need to understand this is for the best. Maybe it would never be the same, but you have each other.