I'm a 24 year old sweetheart that has let people take advantage of my kindness. It all starts with my mom and dad, whom got together when my mom was 15. My dad being 8 years older than my mom saved her from her families issues. My mom looked up to my dad as her hero, but my mom had secrets of her own stored away because of how judgemental this world can be at times. Her and my dad got married when she was 18 and had me at 20. I had my daughter September 4th, 2024. Me and my daughter Rory had a traumatic experience at the hospital. While her father complained about being a father and "having to help take care of our child" till I got better. I woke up to everything I have been through. It all lead to my childhood life barely hanging out with friends and constantly distancing myself from everyone in my room alone. While everyone wished they were me; I was my mother's therapist. I had to always be that older sibling to be strong even though I wasn't. But at the time I did not feel like anyone would be there to listen to my problems. My issues felt like a huge burden. Especially throughout the years with friends and family entering in and out of my life and never knowing what's real. The end of 2024 was the first time I ever knew I needed counciling just so I could start speaking up for myself. That's what I'm here to do, but in writing. This road will be a little bumpy, but my goal is to be a voice for others in need of help or guidance. I've noticed reading, writing or listening to inspirational music has helped me in many ways. Now my plan is to start living my life for me and not for others or to even remotely let anyone try to control how or what I do with my life. Nobody is perfect. We are all just learning and growing as life goes on. All of my darkest days all I wanted to do is be alone, but that's not a life. That is feeling stuck in your own prison. Sometimes we need an escape to reality or someone to talk to or for them to say I'm here.