Dari_Goldstein

@Dari_Goldstein 
            Thank you <3 
            I was never cheated on and I hope I never will, which I consider is one of the worst kinds of suffering, because of romantic relationship and breakups, but still, I survived many aspects of toxicity first, then being lying to and then being treated like a trash to say the least, this one is about my last breakup little more than year ago.
            By the way, do you remember what we were talking about yesterday in comment section of your last chapter?
            Don't worry, because apperantly your ex is a kur*a [remember - 'w' instead of 'v' in Polish :-D ] and she will stay like that, like we used to say in Poland ;-)
            Once k****, always k****. Sad truth, but still truth. 
            * sending you the strongest hugs *

@melanix8 oh, I’ve got you here :c same with me though, my last real relationship was 5 years ago (hahahaha a long time ago I consider now…) and yeah, I don’t think that I’ve recovered from that (bruh… the girl has cheated on me with 3 other girls like for real… that’s weird…). But anyways! I’m in therapy now and still working on myself :) One day maybe I will be ready but rn I’m focusing on my job and studying further so yeah.. no time to waste! *sending you the warmest hugs*

@Dari_Goldstein 
            That’s one of the most annoying kinds of birthday wishes.
            Four months ago one of colleagues I never liked told me “I wish you to find a great boyfriend .” BLAH BLAH BLAH
            And I’ve got wishes like that not only from her, which annoyed me even more! 
            Like, come on! 
            Romantic relationships aren’t the most important part of life. 
            For me the most important things are family, friendships and love for these things I mentioned, including passion for hobbies, things I love to do, things which make me feel better and worthy. That’s what’s important for me right now and I am trying to hold onto that. 
            Especially while I don’t want these romantic things by now, so I also don’t need birthday wishes about it…
            Especially when it’s not important for me, since my last breakup a little more than year ago (it kind of shattered my heart into pieces, so since then I still feel some kind of blockade about new relationships etc. …). 
            So because of it I also feel like I won’t ever have a husband or even a new boyfriend. 
            Does it bother me? Sometimes. Especially when I miss someone sometimes…
            But does  it make me feel bad or unworthy? Absolutely not! 
            Do I feel safer and better now without these romantic things and relationships? Yes, many times!
            There are sort of things connected to relationships I miss, of course (wink wink), but at least I am not putting myself into suffering anymore.
            The last time I suffered well, it still didn’t end, not completely, I can tell. It’s still difficult to forget many things about my last relationship and hard breakup. 
            I am trying not to think about it, but nightmares are nightmares - these exist no matter what I do, even when I am not thinking about it all I mentioned above. 
            Memories unfortunately exist either. 
            Oh, this cake will be beautiful! 
            I’ve got apple pie four months ago, little muffins and pizza as “birthday dinner”, but I love these, so I didn’t mind at all. 

Thank you  I’m searching for some inspiration, so yeah