Darklightlily2
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So..this is it. I'm locked out from my old account and posting this from an alt that I made just a few minutes ago. I've heard the news, the great big defeat that comes to every platform at some stage:The Big Bad Porn Ban. The downfall of so many greats like livejournal, fanfiction.net, tumblr and now wattpad. My old stuff had a lot of raunchy immature haha sex is funny which means that it will inevitably get wiped from the platform. This is mainly the reason I came back, to preserve that stupid, immature but still so full of life piece of writing, a part of me that shouldn't mean much but..it does. it really does. I loved creating back then, when things werent so big and scary, when little traumatised 15 year old me still had something akin to innocence left. This website used to mean everything to me, whether it was figuring out I was bisexual and non binary, or escaping from my shit life, or just making friends and having fun and ignoring all the bad and ugly. it was cringe, but it was me. A me that I can't fully remember except in bits and pieces of fear. People say that I'm still young, but it feels like I've lived and lost so much over the years. I'm glad I havent lost this. And I'm so so glad that I never deleted anything from here, even if I did get pretty damn close. To anyone who maybe is still around and getting a notification from me writing this or whatever, this is your sign: dont delete anything from your stupid cringy past. Those parts of us are important and still very much us, no matter what. I'm mainly writing this for me. For closure. For a goodbye. I'll never be as stupidly hopeful and happy as I was back then, but at least I have this to remind me. Goodbye wattpad! You'll still be brought up in conversation just to be laughed at and made fun of, but you'll have a small special place in my heart. To the writers and the mutuals who made me forget: Thank you. And to 15 year old me: you made it. Despite it all, you've made it. And I'm so so proud.
