Why I’m so Silent...
You can call me crazy all you want, starting a new job and not even have experienced it yet and already dreading it, doesn’t feel worth the hype everyone I know keeps pushing on me. More money! A better schedule! Learning experience! And in my mind I respond with: More depression! More tiredness! Not worth the money! I start next week, it’s something new for me and some of it looks fun, but ever since the interview I can’t help but feel it’s not for me. And I know! I haven’t even tried it yet, I may love it... but I’ve learned to trust the weird insticts or pulls I get from my heart if something feels right or wrong for me. I need help, guidance, all of my friends and family are excited for me but I feel so much doubt. But I have a car to pay for, insurance and I need to put money in savings and I can’t start education again until I have a more stable income. My parents promised that on me. I worry I won’t have a breath for myself because it’s so much of my time. I’m worried I will suffocate. Help..
