9

For the past three days, I have been woken up by my mother kicking down my door and yelling at me. I am incapable of catching a break

I have some news! Unfortunately, a terrible fate will be put on the back burner and I won't be updating abstract fear as much either in favor of a project I have been setting up for a while. I'm working on making a video game, I've been learning UE5 and C++ and intend on making that the main focus. There might be another update to abstract horror, but I cannot say for certain. I will, however be posting lore, character designs, and updates in the new story.

Bugs under your skin.
          There are bugs under your skin.
          Wriggling beneath the surface.
          Crawling within your flesh.
          Dig them out.

I'm not playing dark souls instead of writing. I promise

My heart pounds constantly. My legs always itch. My skin doesn't seem to fit right. I feel ill, yet I am left without a fever.
          
          You hurt me, but I hurt you worse. You didnt deserve that much. You hurt me, but I could take the pain. I violated your trust.
          
          I hurt you, you hurt me, but only you get punished at home. I could have taken the blame for it all, but I was too selfish. Too afraid to take it all.
          
          I dont feel like a person. I have grown too aggressive. To vain. I regret everything I've said, all my playful taunts. I regret everything I've ever done.
          
          I fear when I feel human again I'll become worse. I know what I do is wrong, but I cant stop myself. Im not strong enough, my mind too fragile to break my vices.
          
          I need to do more, I have to be more, I have to be better. Not in strength, academics, nor in writing.
          
          I need to be kinder, for should I not be kinder, my skin won't fit right, my legs grow to heavy to walk, and my arms tied to my side. I need to be better, better for you and for all I've done.
          
          You want someone else and my eyes fill with tears, a good friend of mine. My friends all hate me and I cling to your side, for your all that i want, for you I would die.

Making some profile changes

Today is Christmas. I have acquired lots of fun things, I may write, however it is.much more likely that I will simply just recluse to my room and build legos all day

I have stumbled upon the fact that I don't need to write chapters in order, I can write in reverse.

Apparently I forced a picture of my dick  upon an ex girlfriend? Dont remember doing that, but a fair amount of people think I'm a horrible person. That's nice

Absolutely FUCKED my leg up today because I tried to hop a fence and the board snapped, causing my shoe to catch and fall seven feet. Im fine, but I tore my favorite pair of pants.