@HeatherLiford well I hadn't been here in a while, but yes! Since you left I really don't know how to put a good ending to it. You always think I don't love you based on my moods. Hey look Heather. Put yourself in my shoes now n then. I no longer live down Terry's. I see dad everyday. I can handle things more at times, but you gotta realize that I can't do whatever I want like I did. It's different. I love Das but at times, I think oh wow, I never get to cop out on my own. If I do. Dad fussed. Don't bother me always, cause it's his way of showing his way. I love Dad. Yes I can say things to get em back but he don't own me. I'm allow to jump when he is unfair. Then again, sometimes I just agree to let em feel big. We always sorta been this way, but I'm there much more now . I guess you found someone else cause you never text or came back, etc over the holidays 2021. It hurts when I think I might be just a pawn to something else.
I really wanted this to work. Yes I love you. I just think you want more. Yes baby the capers, n peas was the touch. The point about gaining power for me is another. At least I own up I'd crave immortality. Only thing is, I wouldn't want to be if I am to be later doomed. Anyways I like alot stuff you like. Heather I do love you. I'm sorry for not helping you totally what you want oudda life. I hope you find it. If you still wanna be with me. I still feel love toward you. You are and was a great impact on my last 11 years. We never could talk well to resolve. I'm not goth like you or wicca, but I have had interest in similar. Its cool, fun, and must be neat to be superhuman or magic, but mine is more of a curiosity now. It's something I'm careful about.
