StabbyTwin#8

Hi so I lowkey boy advice so there’s a guy I’m talking to but he literally won’t talk to me in school except for in one class. He won’t even look at me. Plus I keep getting left on read or delivered even tho I know damn well he is at his house playing Fortnite. Like just a few days ago he was calling me pretty and beautiful and telling me he liked me. But today he hardly texted or talked to me. And he didn’t call me. Which is odd bc we were in ft everyday after school. And one of our mutual friends was asking him when he was going to ask me out or smth and he told her no or smth. Plus she called him my bf and he did not seem to like that. Like if you never intended to actually date me why lead me on????? But then again I might just be overthinking everything. But he also got asked if he liked me and he said kind of on Thursday. Like am I being led on or should I just continue talking to him? I asked my mom about it and she doesn’t care either way but it’s going to be so awkward if I quit talking to him bc we sit next to each other in class but it’s only for another like week. Soooo idk what to do. Bc I actually like him but idk if he likes me back. And I might just be overthinking all of this. Should I just like give him next week too and see how he acts???? Bc I don’t wanna waste time chasing after a boy who doesn’t actually rlly like me. Plus he’s shorter than me. Omg when he first gave me his number he did so in a note and he said to not show anyone. Also seems to be rlly close to the one girl and that’s in the same class that he won’t talk to me in. Am I like some side chick rn????? Like does he intended to keep me a secret like am I that embarrassing that you can’t even say hi to me in the morning bc we have 1st and 2nd hour together. And its not like I’m asking him to declare his love for me or some shit. Like just utter two words to me.

hey twin, ilysm <33 i hope you're doing well

Hi love, its Moonanime6,you might not remebr me but  I love stalking my old friends to make sure there doin fine lmao, anyways felt like saying hi, so hi my stabby twin, I hope your okay, pls do commit arson on all the stupid peeps. Even if you don't remember me, I still do, love you a lot, don't let this stupid world get to you kay, your are still one of thekindest, sweetest, funniest caring people I ever met, and if anyone says otherwise fuck them, and don't end it love, this world isn't worthy of that much,  isnt worthy of you shedding tears for it, hurting yourself for it, why end it all for this stupid world, its the one that made u cry, it should be the one going up in flames, not u, anyways love you all, byee.

This is a vent ig?
          First off I want to say I’m so sorry for never being on life happened and well it got to much for me. But I probably won’t regularly be on. I also want to say thank you to everyone who has been there for me.
          
          Anyways onto the vent tw
          So yk what’s funny how someone can changed so much in just months. I used to be the person telling people to try and not cut or not burn. I was the person encouraging people to attempt to eat. I wanted to be there for everyone. Now I’m the one who does cut and does burn. I’m the one who struggles with my emotions. I’m the one the shuts everything out and doesn’t tell people how I feel. I’m also now the one who struggles with eating whether it’s not eating over overeating to the point where I’m so full I might puke. I’m the one who’s lying through my teeth to my mom my therapist my friends, everyone. I’m the one who wish their mother kept alcohol in the house so I could get shit faced and not feel things. I’m the one that secretly is contemplating ending it all some days. I’m also the one that could never tell my mom bc I wouldn’t be believed. But yk wants even more funny is I know this is all wrong I should get help. I have marks on me that would prove I’m not lying for attention but I’m scared. That even if they knew I would still be treated like I was faking it for attention. 
          
          
          Anyways people the jist of this besides me venting is that you can never tell who someone actually feels. So be nice to everyone bc the girl that’s always smiling could be about to take that jump. Or the quiet kid could be craving into his skin every night. So be careful what you say to others bc even small things can have the biggest impact.

hey so I came across ur acc and realized I haven't talked to u in a while, how are you?

Hi my lovely followers it’s been forever sense I’ve been active. I was gone for my mental health but I’m back!!!

Yk what’s fun!!!!
          
          When your father gets a new life and you aren’t apart of it. Your siblings however are-

Hi everyone!! How are you doing??? Anyways skip this we will be switching to me 
          
          
          RANTING
          
          Yet again- 
          
          So my dads a hoe- and he has a gf and he is still married and she has been his gf sense December ish- also he is trying to kill my siblings bc of drunk driving- and he hasn’t done anything to repair our relationship- also yk what sucks when the only parent you can rely on is more like a friend than a mom- like I love her but sometimes I need a mom not a bestie. Like I was rlly upset with my hurdles yesterday and she couldn’t bother to ask me how I was doing it was just her ranting about more dad being awful- 
          
          Anyways that’s all for today I could say a lot lot lot more but I don’t wanna be a bother. Also I’m not going to be on wp a lot so there’s that

Hiii!!!!
          
          So with the pms being deleted and stuff you can add me on discord my user is
          that1gurl

Do yall have parents who say there going to do things and then never actually do-?
          
          Bc my mom does that all the time like yesterday she promised we where going to go get sushi and do a little shopping but now we aren’t going and I don’t get a reason- like this shit happens regularly and it pisses me off like if you didn’t want to do smth you could have just told me that